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Thursday, October 31, 2002 
find your element at mutedfaith.com. <º>  What kind of Goth would you be? brought to you by Quizilla wad's a darkwave? tehgo walked into the light @ 10/31/2002 06:09:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 Which Disney villain are you? brought to you by Quizilla 
What Ragnarok Character Should You Be? Quiz by Angelhalo  A fluffy snow-cat, you're always able to appreciate a soft bed i alwaes thot snow leopards were vicious tehgo walked into the light @ 10/31/2002 05:56:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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so much for being named bright... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/31/2002 05:48:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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i dun mean juz mi dogs or koi... i mean, bees, birds... beeg, unfamiliar dogs for e.g., 6 bees were buzzing arnd mi leg n if i kicked them, 6 stings will b in mi leg so i juz sed "pls go away", n somehow they did juz tt... like, 2 sec response or even lizards n crocs... i met a croc in jurong beeg... reeli beeg, like, 3-4 metres... n i juz thot, omg, tt's huge, n it's gonna kill us "pls, leave us alone in peace..." it slunk back into e water... not even coming close or rather... it came close, blinked, n zhao hao xin you hao bao... tt thing cud kill a cow... dammit! n in e states, i found a cute BEEG scorpion b4 anione saw it n crushed it, i muttered "go, b4 someone kills u" i'm now crazee... thinking i can appease animals then once mi dog bit mi arm... wah so pain... even tho he onlee a small dog i sat down, sed, "if u bite mi n find peace, go ahead" he bit mi a while longer, then let go, n sat down next 2 mi n slept... like as if he knew wad wuz going on... ppl on e other hand, dun listen 2 anione bcuz they r too selfish... too uptight god noez wad we haf vanquished frm this land animals, trees, all gone... thanks 2 man... if there were ever a god of destruction, it wud b us bcuz nort even e ice age wiped out so many things n so fast as well... even elephants r peaceful animals onlee duel for mating n territory... man destroys evrything for tt same purpose... i hate u... i hate u all... for doing this our animal brethren haf pleaded 2 no avail... if mi death meant life for animals, i'd do so... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/31/2002 05:40:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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wah die... tt means 2Q 2M same dayz!? wad we haf in common most harhz??? oh yes... tt's rite... someone go back 2 sch get our klaz ball back!! unless... daniel has it polearms r nice... i nearly whacked mi arm off this person is now sinking into another mindset i m onlee conscious enuff 2 realise... not 2 stop we shud haf duelling... since 2M likes wrestling... c daryl n han meow fight it out looks damn weak but of cos... when daryl gets serious... damn pain but wad e hell... i serious or not still so jia lat ren zi chu, xing ben shan... pls rmb... go back 2 ur slumber o giant... li kai fan jian... n giv mi peace it's like, i'm not hu i wuz... i'm splitting... no, i dun mean e part tt i m 5 mil ppl... i mean... warring images comes 2 mind... elephants r e gentle giants... even claudyne's fren sed so... n i m i think, i hope n i wish... pls let it b so c... i nearly killed mi dog juz while picking it up i hope i can b gd frenz wif ppl esp those i tried being reeli nice to... as in... like hanging out... n such shit... i can't yawn or sneeze... fux chocobo dungeon 2 iz cute... n i end up playing old games cuz ps iz dying, com is nort updated hehz, no offense ppl... i juz realised sth... dog iz e opp of god... cuz i juz sed Dog, u stink... go run in e rain or sth it's like saying god, u stink... go take a bath... great digression... i'm going nutz mebbe it's bcuz of e rains we're having mebbe it's bcuz of e op i juz had... mebbe it's bcuz i'm no longer "me" mebbe it's bcuz i haf a seed of hatred mebbe it's bcuz... i m hu i m... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/31/2002 05:07:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Wednesday, October 30, 2002 if i can completely clear mi room, tt's a miracle, cuz i dun think i'll bother but i did... n another miracle happend too... waileong wuz nice 2 mi... for 2dae... i can't reeli tok, can i? unless it's aboz gaming, or sth in sports or then i'll b in shit n can't think... when will u b able 2 pass back e clothes? daniel, pls dundundun rush mi... i veri fan nao liaoz... fo zhi yuan liang ni 3 ci... where i heard tt frm arhz? .... ..... ...... oh yeah, flame of recca... tt one damn cool haiz... y can't i speak mi mind? god... i shud strengthen up... at least tt one i can use... now can't shout 2K n 2M go chalet liaoz... 2P n 2L going soon... zul arhz... u say 5th izzit? i've been thinking... sth iz stunting mi growth i'm like, shortening... i'm no longer growing juz when i aboz 2 reach 1.8 summore... 1.795!!! wtf iz tt man!! haiz... ren zi chu, xing ben shan... now y does tt go into mi head all of e sudden? oh yea... go ahead n laff larhz... botakbotakbotak n bc, i dun reeli care if marian dun like botak guys cuz i dun care at all... i think... but gd for headers eepz... nah... shan't say... but mebbe u noe or notz i want magic... magic is e flow of nature... or so they say in e books... n gandalf e actor now lookz like saruman lehz... mebbe i m, mebbe i'm nort... i'm confused... i noe muz lose weight duh.. at least i've lost 10kg... but nort e point point iz... how 2 grow taller now? n pls... someone help mi curb mi rage soon... i pissed gary off 2dae... n b4 i knew it... he kicked mi mi hand more likely... natural reaction finally i finished star ocean 2... but now wad's e use i so violent... i dun wanna b isolated... i m a fighter... not a barbarian... i m hu i used 2 b, not wad i juz wuz... first he'll take mi hands...then mi legs when i finally give up, mi thots.... hehez... i even ended up hurting miself juz moving arnd... mi leg kick mi other leg can u ever help mi? or muz i go thru dis alone? tehgo walked into the light @ 10/30/2002 11:24:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 Which Action Star Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty .... i think they haf little ideas.... arhz nvm..... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/30/2002 11:08:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, October 29, 2002 eepz.... i'm such a slacker... din go sch 2dae... legally pontang 2 wks mc, so y bother going back? frenz... tt's wad i think... sorrie pplz, for missing soccer 2dae i forgot 2 come for soccer... hahaz i juz sed, "i'm tired, n i haf 2 wks mc so screw off n let mi sleep on 2ml" tho i sed it in a nicer way... "get lost, i wanna sleeeeeeeep!!!" so much nicer rite? i'm a lamer now... mi whole class iz influencing mi... our class spirit iz so strong, tt we stick 2gether but our class iz oso so lame... dun think we'll evr b 2gether again lehz... boo hoo.... so saddening... mi foot, we're 2gether till sec 4 but so boring 2 b alone... n so fed up wif tt waileong iz our class mascot... ~e peak of lameness in RI~ star ocean 2 almost completed haish... i wuz such a quitter last time now i'm clinging on 2 wadever i like... blearh... gimme a grappling hook larhz but for gd reasons... not tt i'm selfish but i m trying 2 change yet meet miself meet as in, do wad i want 2, in a different way pong... if u read this, lionel_ong@hotmail.com i found out liaoz... it's melissa frm plmgs now hu e heck izzat? dunno, do u? ahahaha... i've got it! i finally got it!!! gort wad? hmmz... wait... i dun get it now i'm beginning 2 contradict miself i feel like a chipmunk... onlee a wee bit diff... food iz stored in their cheeks... mine is lodged in e pocket mi tonsils left behind n it hurts like hell... oh yea, i think i'll b at mi cuzzie's home mebbe frm 2ml to sat... then after tt, japan... hu wants mi 2 get them anything? pls reply, n i gort mi lousy hp back againz i shall make, "making other frenz frm other schs", mi goal bcuz then i gort reason 2 go out... n make new frenz i feel like i want to punch you has bcome wad i haf sed most often when i'm pissed so tt i dun accidentally sae fux in frnt of mi family n teachers n, i think i'm losing control veri fast lorhz... i wanna kick bc nowz... for wad reason? dunno, tt's y i not in control... shinigami no te... hand of death... blablabla mi cuzzies' r lame pplz... when i hit them... they'll go like, ow, e fist of holiness... n when i hit them wif mi palm... "wah... buddha palm!" sighz... but at least they're not like waileong or gary, they dun irritate mi till i feel sad haiz... 2ml i hafta go back, 2 get report bk n muz go back normal time in e morning meet wei ling, after noon muz meet jasbir koh cheeken... michelle arhz... pls larhz... sae sth when u mean it can? tehgo walked into the light @ 10/29/2002 08:34:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, October 28, 2002 evr gort tt feeling where u noe e world stares at u cuz of sth? n tt when u c sumone u reeli wanted 2 tok 2 yet cudn't? haish.... i feel sick... no, not bing, but fan nao... even if bc were 2 read this, hu gives a fuck... oh yea, tt's rite bc, fuck off... quit disturbing mi... u wun like mi if i'm pissed arghz... mi hands r gaining back unwanted strength... blows after blows r getting stronger n stronger... i wun b able 2 hold out against this barrage of pain... pain in mi heart, not mi self... cuz self iz nothing sure, i'd fantasize of having a proper hack-blade n going arnd 2 kill ppl for e sake of ridding nuisance but no, i dun wanna do tt reeli... esp if it's mi frenz we're tokking aboz oh yea, thanks a bunch daniel, for helping mi out wif tt prob haiz... off 2 3-n-a-half hr tuition again... sian man... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/28/2002 05:38:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Sunday, October 27, 2002 this shall nort b mi daily thots aboz events... in evry person's heart, a light stays dormant in e darkness, e light shines 2 lead us in e point where we may leave this world, e light breaks out of its confinement, and outshines e darkness 2 save ourselves this light iz called luv, which we all haf n we can share, 2 save us frm hatred... each of us r special in our own ways tiny ppl r more flexible n agile (i hope) big ppl can take more n r strong normal ppl can blend in smart ppl can help us psychologically luving ppl unites us as one diligent ppl improve our minds but in our eyes, onlee few r special tt they r juz more than 1 ways in which he/she iz special bcuz we r e ones, hu haf e power 2 speak n fite instinct tehgo walked into the light @ 10/27/2002 10:35:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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y did i nort get change of clothes? y i muz ying ying go 2 town in all white? short sleeves, white pants, bald head... xcept for e look n colour, i look like G! as in HOLY MAN, G!!! "hi, i'm e holy man, n i m j, not g" juz 2 lan, i sed, juz 2 lan, i thot then suddenly mi cuzzie drag mi go look at manga well.... at least i wuzn't wearing any ethnic clothes worse... wah fux... liddat i go into middle of orchard rd go zi sha... fuxfuxfux... 2 wks mc for e last 5 daes of sch n i volunteered 2 come back 2 sch on mon... RI DI comp... fux larhz... boring pieceoffuxingshit by yap evry1 sez i juz need robes n i look like a cheena monk daniel li arhz... can understand i no hp but i rmb onlee ur hp no? whole day dun wanna ans call... then i in dilemma... beeg girl he sez... i estimate she same size as u marhz... not like i calculate G-G-G-G.... G-G-G-G~ wuz watching 2 documentaries 2dae... 1 on spiders e other wuz on shaolin temple life n training spiders r so versatile... so agile... yet so fragile as well but farnie thing iz they were tokking aboz chi tt can bounce e opponents' blows back like spring does tt mean i can concentrate mi chi too? i dunno... it juz seems 2 hit full force lehz... :p arghz... 1 dun wanna help, another dun wanna b there shit larhz... i feel like hanging someone... remind mi 2 get a chain in japan, 2 hang ppl wif michelle, i feel like i wanna punch u - Alex Trevec, missing e name michelle mi sis broke mi cute donald cup!!! e 1 i gort frm US!!! *sobz*... nvm, i spoilt mi hp, which iz her old one :p but so unfair... i get all e old stuff... *grumblez* sneezing iz pain... i feel like i tore out mi throat yawning cannot stretch mouth, or painpainpain old lai old qu, wo xiang i muz save or i'll b outdated mi ps 4 yrs old! it's like, DYING!!! oh yea... saw sum farnie t-shirt ad... "Masturbation is not a crime brought to you by Porn Star" haiz... gtg sleep soon... so little sleep... 3 hrs last nite... play till 1, sleep till 4, go temple like gort nothing better 2 do... at least can lan after tt thanks lee hu, for helping mi out... i juz rmbed... i guang ming zhen da larhz happy? whole day say tt.... y alwaes i sumhow kena wan harhz? n pong, sorrie horhz... din noe u join... summore thot fake oh yeah... can we all juz b frenz? i dun want special frenz cuz when they betray u, ur heart juz breaks... painzpainzpainz.... if i had a wish 2 b granted, it wud b 2 cast magicks cuz... then i can summon forth e elements, to cleanse this forsaken world filled wif evil n greed..... n e holy man sez, "gd nite pplz, may e light shine upon u" tehgo walked into the light @ 10/27/2002 10:28:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Friday, October 25, 2002 head of a gator, body of an elephant strength of an ant, wit of a tortoise agility of a wolf, courage of a lion flexibility of a leopard, speed of a swift god, day-dreaming again at least i gort strength of bear n jaws tt wuz like a gator's can crush bone... now i reduced 2 baby food onlee cereal n other soft foods worse, can't b hot... no soup u're fighting a losing battle, he sez no point in fighting wad u can't, he sez juz giv her up, he sez juz giv ur peace up for violence, he sez hu m i? he asks... i m u, n u r i, we r 1 n e same bcuz... it's e hidden mi... so long... buried in e depths of mi mind, i awaken these fists r no longer holding back strength i m winning, he sez u can no longer put mi 2 sleep, he sez e stench of violence n bloodlust iz growing arnd mi mi frenz... stay away... i m not safe it's no use, he sez u r already losing, he sez... fite mi if u muz, but u'll nvr win, he sez i shalt seal thy peace away, he sez... i wish u ppl cud help mi, save mi, frm this hatred but no, he sez, u haf held back long enuff now it's time for u 2 rest n mi 2 arise, he replied mi shackles haf been broken, these shackles shackles of frenship n luv, but luv iz gone n mi hands r free 2 do evil, mi legs muz hold on or i'll nvr live this while down... save mi......... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/25/2002 07:00:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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y? cuz mi goddamn tonsils r gone... i mite juz die trying 2 swallow wifout pain... evrything u eat u want it 2 look gd, but when anything comes out, it looks sick like mi tonsils... meatballs wif lotsa blood so, i soung like thisg... cuz tt lobe-thing (dunnowaducallit) iz touching mi tongue i definitely sound weird but nvm... KK wuz horrid... all those babies... n thanks 2 e fact i'm onlee 14, i muz b there e 2nd oldest iz like, 8!? i feel babyish, cannot eat hard food until 2 wks past n summore no hot food... dammit well... muz find out wad happend in sch, daniel~... wad haf u done in sch~? yj~... wad haf u done 2 e clan~? btw, "a game of thrones" iz a horny book evrything oso fuck this n tt rape this n tt... but of cos e main theme still there warring states between treacherous Houses blablabla... but it wuz a fun read but wtf manz... nvr end until bk 3!!! n i onlee haf bk 1!!! or rather, mi sis has =p tehgo walked into the light @ 10/25/2002 03:40:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, October 22, 2002 shit.... so tired i dunno y... fell asleep 2-3 hrs straight... n i din think of strats!!! at last! i dreamt of sth else... but it wuz weird nvr sleep past an hr... i juz wake up op begins on thurs... muz go hosp 2ml die larhz... sure die... can't yell for long time fux... how 2 do war cry whilst playing soccer? it scares e shit outta puny ppl like sec 1s n LCH hates mi n daniel li we both kena so low, he failed stupid shit din giv mi markz for li jie wen da question n summore derek wrote almost same thing n gort 2 for it!!! screw it larhz i look at mi hand n i rmb sth pong, i'll take it as an accident tt u scratched mi 2dae i oso muz cut nails, so tt go op, dun scratch e doc hahaz.... "boy kills doc during op" i wuz quite pissed 2dae sorrie daniel, sorrie derek, sorrie eddy pong so cute dun feel like torturing him but sometimes i do either way :P ahh... using "rhapsody" 2 disguise a phone call is so fun "land of immortals, i'll wait for..." "hello? ~ there?" then tok a while, b4 i started 2 lose mi mind then after i put down... brain juz died on mi i fell down on mi bed, juz tried 2 relac... din werk... i nearly broke mi stereo... screw u... juz screw u, u stupid temper i want 8250... screw daryl n ngiap one has 66?? n other has 8310 i had 2 live wif a lousy 3210!!! 2dae soccer so corny i nearly beheaded pong wif mi kicks 5 times n again, i rmb sth in a dream... exact same image "*LC* SoulBane »~*¤TëH¤*~« fux... maths F9, hist E8, science C6!!! (dunno when i get new hp...)" i wuz juz tokking 2 jemima... then screw... rmb i dreamt of this in august y din i rmb!? if i did, can avert failure!!! SCREW!!! haiz... i hate miself.... dammit now muz hibernate 4 4 daes... god i feel lonely... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/22/2002 10:22:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Maths F9, History E8, Science C6 wad's todae? find-out-u-fail day? god i'm screwed... now gort "muz-go" PTM form fux... how i gonna play wifout conscience? nvmz... i might juz die during mi op so can go away frm this cursed land hospitalization for 4 daes wifout hp!? boredom descends on thy mind filleth it with emptiness endeth it with loneliness... visit mi or call mi can? i dun wanna b a loner animore i'm pissed, sure, at miself for not even managing a pass in maths n hist... now i'm dead... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/22/2002 05:32:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, October 21, 2002 CL B4, EL B3, Lit B4, Geog A2! i'm gonna die!!!! omg, i juz wanna kick e ball paint LCH's face n giv a hard kick wish i cud juz do some voodoo make her live in a living hell yeah... tt'll b juz great... so fun even wei ling gave so much higher for summary hatred filleth thy mind, with anger and sorrow, thus thou shalt begin thy untimely demise tehgo walked into the light @ 10/21/2002 10:35:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Sunday, October 20, 2002  Who's your inner singer-songwriter? Take the quiz! this reminds mi... i felt like yelling "screw u" in e hall when having BYO, while yam n zul were doing DI n trying 2 infuse e idea of mi in it 2 make fun of mi haish... wad cud b worse? tough i dunno which way confident? mebbe not but nonconformist, try n break mi tehgo walked into the light @ 10/20/2002 10:10:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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so pro, war3 3 v 3coms we can win! BF1942 damn corny sia... esp wif noobz MOHAA even more suay... so fun 2 playplayplay but so sian, 2ml getting back papers... i wud luv 2 sae, hey i got new hairdo but now can onlee say, hey i gort new do cuz no hair, summore dis time worse n mi head feels like rough leather headers shud b more accurate now but i look back at wad i thot wuz yest n it wuz 3 yrs ago instead come back! dun leave mi! pls!! *sobz* i feel like a star iz in mi head u noez... boom, super nova evrything comes together n poof completely blank n empty fai owez mi $19.50 hahaz... i gort $30 2 save much less 2 use stoopid ol' mi... being a blur pieceofshit i leave mi hp in pocket n dump it wif other clothes in basket maid, being new, din check until it has been soaked for 10 mins! it died... completely nothing shown onlee backlight wuz left ghostly on... communications down 20-25% now more suay... lanning appointments in a mess movies too... arcade n Magic card gaming disrupted life's now a complete mess... but evry cloud has a silver lining i can get a new phone! i'm so jian tt i m proud of it... blearh tehgo walked into the light @ 10/20/2002 10:05:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, October 19, 2002 went 2 lan frm 10.00am-5.30pm... so song... 7 hrs continuous! blearh... cost mi $18.50 buckz $1 for 1/2 hr!? SIAO!!! haiz nvm, now quek's father want mi help him find cheap games mi n mi beeg mouth... y dun i juz tape it down? thanks kenneth n ngiap, or i'll b stranded there stupid mi, lend $$ off b4 e day of LAN then left $2... play wad sai!!! i hang mi head in sadness... izzat wad u reeli think? i dun care? if i din, if i juz din, i think i mite haf been better off not needing 2 care for neone, take a fist n blow a head simple as tt... but no, i do care, care for mi frenz even for those hu dun deserve it... e more we noe, e more we fear e more we luv, e more we hate grandma's bdae 2dae, sorrie pplz sorrie marian, din tok 2 u cuz no time sorrie lee hu, cudn't stay till 6 sorrie kenneth, for borrowing $$ frm u sorrie ngiap n daryl, for tt misunderstanding sorrie brains, for not thinking rationally sorrie lord, for not thinking correctly... sorrie fists, for using u for e wrong purposes sorrie, so sorrie, i haf let u all down sorrie miself, for not keeping another promise this empty shell u call a body shud haf been someone else's bcuz i haf no use for it... i m, SoulBane... e loner wif out a soul... a warrior of eternal darkness if i had a power, a superhuman power it wud b teleportation, 2 b wif mi frenz when they need mi then there wud b some meaning in mi life i mean now, i juz live 2 help, yet cannot help WHY!? tell mi... juz y... y m i so tired, so fatigued... by e single thot, of nvr ever getting luved... or even, nvr ever getting true frenship n loyalty? good lord... izzere no one worth trusting? bindeth mi in thy shadow of darkness, mi soul boundeth 2 e chains of sorrow. life hath no mercy on thy soul so giveth up n stop fighting... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/19/2002 10:47:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Friday, October 18, 2002 y cudn't RI b a target for JI? still, dishonourable act... i used 2 luv wars... then i realised i luved wars of e past not of e present, where innocents r killed i used 2 thrive on darkness... now i thrive on e luv i giv 2 mi frenz n vice versa i still collect blades... but i'm no longer mi no longer tt grudge-bearing, uncontrollable monster i've rethought evrything i've done... i juz wanna die now i wanna die in a battle, between samurais or knights magi, beastmasters, wadever, but not in a terrorist attack there's no honour, no fight given back... it's like, onlee living juz 2 die wifout a reason... fatigue iz hitting mi... so hard i'm exhausted 2ml iz lan dae... i shud b happy, energetic n crazee i'm juz thinking over wad i've done wrong... ahh... still nutz aboz her... no one noes tt until now i wish 2 keep it tt i dun care... but i do, y? i wish 2 keep mi frenz safe... y they so scared of gangsters? if those guys put a piece of lead in mi chest gd for them, not much torture been stabbed in e arm once b4, after falling down damn huge stone embedded in grnd then damn sharp stone come n slip into mi skin din even realise until much later at home happiness, mi frenz keep happy, dun b sad, i'll feel damn bad no, not trying 2 rhyme i mean it... i no longer care for miself sustenance iz but 2 keep mi in this world energy expelled wuz great, not gd enuff tho e ball nearly wuz deflated wif a saving punch this dragon is nearly dead... e end of mi fire iz nigh... mi pillar of life iz almost finished mi life has aboz ended, i live 2 cheer ppl on giv mi at least tt, share wif mi ur sorrows n pain cuz i giv u mi word on mi life i'll nvr giv it away, over mi dead body bcuz betrayal iz unforgiveable it juz leads 2 hatred... SoulBane has begun his demise this life-taker's end iz nigh it iz now time 2 giv back, n forget forget evrything, evrybody, n i'll nvr haf luv... bcuz, SoulBane iz juz but one hu dies of heartbreak tehgo walked into the light @ 10/18/2002 10:44:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 Which Personality Disorder Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla BLASPHEMY!!! DIE U BASTARD!!!! lolz... i'm being mi lame new self again tehgo walked into the light @ 10/18/2002 10:22:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Thursday, October 17, 2002 oh god... i feel so slack... i've too much energy muz expel it... or i'll go nuts soccersoccersoccer... depending on u nowz... even aikido wuz not safe... i nearly killed eugene so many times not even gaming gort rid of it... gd lord... i'm not done blogging since 1 hr ago... spongebob squarepants is lame but damn corny... wah lauz... i going back 2 cartoons!!! fux.... no soccer... onlee after sch onlee gort "ultimate frisbee" cheeken... bored liaoz... "kingdom hearts"... so fun summon simba... summon genie... but so sad... hafta fight sora's fren fren vs fren... muz it alwaes b tt way? oh god... i feel like crying... not for e game... i juz rmbed mi past... past... so pain wasureru... do tt... dun do otherwise time for this elephant 2 forget his life his frenz... his luv... his compassion... his family... his games... his past... gimme e power 2 fight back... e courage 2 do so... n e hatred 2 channel gimme back mi life... gimme back wad i lost... gimme back mi freedom... gimme back... juz gimme back.... ahhz.... *sobz* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH! GIMME BACK MI OLD LIFE WHERE I DIN HAF 2 GO THRU THIS!!! tehgo walked into the light @ 10/17/2002 11:25:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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~screw this....~ tehgo walked into the light @ 10/17/2002 08:42:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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mebbe tt's right.... i'm always thinking aboz other things than wad's now...
headstrong bugger ehh.... err.... ???  Take the Final Fantasy X personality test here! tok aboz coincidence... wuz watching cuz play "kingdom hearts" squaresoft/disney ps2 game... so nice... so cute!!! tehgo walked into the light @ 10/17/2002 08:39:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Wednesday, October 16, 2002 ahahahaz... mi mind's being polluted by nicktoons! spongebob squarepants iz lame, so lame tt itz worse than waileong! "Mr Adam Sandler wrote... Abbie Doobie.." "Abbie... Doobie... Abbie Doobie..." "I wish i could ~punch~ u" -celeb jeopardy, travech n fake sandler evrytime i read a blog... i c happiness n sorrow... late night blogging so queer... it brings out all mi thots can't get over ppl hu haf made an impact on mi life... or wad's gonna b left of it.... i feel a pain so strong in mi heart... i juz wish it were heart prob... so it can b solved... but no... it's probz of e heart i wish i cud hug someone when i'm crying... i used 2 hug mi stuffed dinos... but now it dun werk they're saturated wif mi old sorrows... no more can go in i need new soft toyz...itz bcome a drug... a painkiller for sad *little* mi i'm falling ill... dunno how... dunno y screw... i wanna say sth so badly wif all mi sincerity 2 sumone... but yet.. i dun wanna do so... cuz it wun b accepted... hahahaz... i'll juz laff at miself in 3rd person mebbe tt helps since when haf i ever cried 2 sumone? nvr... since when haf i cried? last yr... since when haf i truly wuz happy? yrs ago... in a time forgotten in mi mind cuzzie's asleep... i'm awake itz already 4.31 n i still wanna blog later still play or i'll cry out loud... i'm lost... i'm a lost soul tehgo walked into the light @ 10/16/2002 04:32:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Sunday, October 13, 2002 heyz... anione looking for mi pls call mi hp no. 96579380... i'm in mi cuzzie's home enjoying miself n trying mi bez 2 forget mi sorrows... i'll b there for mebbe until thurs... no msn tho... lee hu, if u read dis, tell yj i wun b home n i wun b able 2 contribute 2 e clan change mi life... tt's wad i shud do now... aikido wuz so fun... i luved it! so fun i wish i cud swop it for sch "So mr connery, wad will b ur word n wager? 'Buck'... i shall take tt as ur wager. N ur word is... 'futter'" "Buck futter. Get it travech?" "No, i dun Nvm, we shall now end celebrity jeopardy and-" "BUCK FUTTER!" -end- celeb jeopardy, where celebs play other celebs... for e sake of laughter tehgo walked into the light @ 10/13/2002 03:11:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, October 12, 2002 hmmmz... i think i've changed quite a bit... during this yr alone... so much happend n i mean A LOT i nvr got used 2 saying bbyez no longer i'm more happy 2 sae "haf a nice dae", or "nitez" or "cya"... so weird teja... u r a nutcase, cuz now u're tokking 2 urself wad's wrong? y m i changing? soo much mi's no longer even half-mi animore i'm now more like, third-me i'm literally splitting apart... more violent when pissed... nutty when happy.... distracted n confused when both... i'm now losing miself... help mi... i've found out unconsciously i'm vicious so vicious i hit jon damn hard by accident... i kicked DC's knee n it bled... wif mi shoe's imprint in it violent me i found out subconsciously i'm too happy tt once i get home... i feel so bored of mi home like it's juz a shell... an empty lifeless shell i'm missing sth in life... juz dunno wad... i've been repeating miself... then mixed feelings hit mi... mi dog so cute n lazee... makes mi forget all mi probs n sorrow... mi feelings contradict each other n i'm left like a spaz... lost n dunno wad 2 do next i wished 2 punch e JAM like punch bags but i can't bring miself 2 do it... sounds like LOTF... Jack hesitated 2 kill e pig e first time wad can i do 2 bring out mi full power? use wad? emotions? which one? anger? hatred? luv? frenship? i'm as lost as a st. bernard's on e himalayas... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/12/2002 03:21:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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for e green valleys where dragons fly for e glory n power 2 win e black lord i will search for e eagle's eye..." sounds so like mi... evrything oso fantasy well... muz live up 2 promises... promise hu 2 lend him mi 4th war3 nvr got yet... blearh... friday muz... otherwise sai... i'm not a liar nor do i betray trust... being used is when one doesn't noe one's helping helping is when one wanna help n helps all not one so m i being used? i dunno... i mean... tt time derek want $50 oso i lend so wad's wrong wif helping? dun tell mi u nvr want help haiz... so difficult 2 understand minds... monday afternoon evryone lan can? n y m i stared at evrywhere i went yest??? dunno lehz... crazee ppl arnd us... ok.... now i being a blur shit again... it muz haf been mi sword in mi bag... even an old lady wuz staring... i thot tt i wuz bleeding sumwhere bcuz tt wuz e onlee possible reason i miss all mi old frenz... nick,wah... since pri 3 liaoz... bryan lum... since pri 1!! amazingly we keep in contact.... marian... well actually if i name ppl most likely it's frm gep jw, justin tan (oso since pri 3) i dun wanna list... sooo many! even kiach oso frm pri 3! ... i seem 2 b contradicting miself as usual... even when suresh scolded mi i contradicted miself while trying 2 defend miself... soo damn pro well ppl... it seems i'm damned freedom iz so short... like pong but muz enjoy b4 dying mon 2 thurs no sch!!! yayz! shit.... mon got kyushu briefing nvm.. lan after tt... go cuzzie's home until mondae leave this scarred land scarred wif eternal wounds of pain n sorrow... may e souls guide mi past this unholy wasteland filled wif bane... soulbane... unholy warrior of e eternal darkness tehgo walked into the light @ 10/12/2002 12:29:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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*jumpjump*hophophop*collapse* i'm in LC ExCo!!! yay! xams r over, chinese wuz easy! xcept for tt damn huo4 da2 time passes slowly if u want it 2 go fast science took so damn long 2 end... esp e last half-hour well... 2nite's meeting wuz ok... 2ml lan day after... lan monday... lan tuesday... slack wed n thurs ditto... fun schedule huh? god i'm lame... well... e hardest part is gone... now for e worst... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/12/2002 01:24:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Thursday, October 10, 2002  So, which Formula 1 Car are you most like? somehow... this doesn't sound rite....  Punk Or Poser brought to you by Quizilla harhz?? ...... wah sian manz...... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/10/2002 10:40:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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i want wine, wine, wine and MORE WINE!!! maths fail liaoz... but at least 2dae onwards slack chinese n science so simple... first things i mugged for hahaz... still can't get over it... I... MUG!... 2 completely diff things zen3 neng2 xiang1 ti2 bing4 lun4 ne1? sianz... i'm gonna wake up 2ml... ppl hu read this, esp if u in ri bring clothes for lanning 2ml... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/10/2002 10:28:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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bc, if u can c this, 2ml morn come 2 sch, slap mi face, n sae,"i wanna fight" mebbe tt's lame okok, i think i got e bez phrase "i wanna die faster, bcuz i noe wad u r doing" roflmao... if u do this, i wun kill u.... but of course, there's a catch... blearh... i'm tokking 2 miself... ichi... ni... san!!! 2ml END OF XAMS!!! we gonna celebrate wif "non-alcoholic" wine sorrie pplz... i tried finding... mi mom n sis not free n i dun look 18... cb... we gort 4 bottles... i'm bringing e ice... i'm gonna get another new bottle of sake make mi self drunk n blurt out wad i alwaes wanted 2 sae.... hmmz.... but tt din happen tt time when i wuz drunk in e movies... too drama liaoz... actually u juz either feel damn warm, red or sleepy n groggy... lolz... i rmb... in china, jiang lao shi wanted 2 check how far we progressed gave us a little sequence 2 b tested on half-sleepy n drunk... i think i nearly fell asleep kicking on e deck... shit... i keep looking at yest's entry... reeli spoiling mi mood... nvm... juz muz rmb tt we all bring xtra clothes 2ml n LAN!!! tehgo walked into the light @ 10/10/2002 10:24:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Wednesday, October 09, 2002 omg... i dunno mi own strength... i think i hit jon too hard 2dae by accident n i'm pissed... no, it's not tt i wanna feel close or i m close, but 1 thing i hate most betrayal... a concept i wish i nvr knew... so well... y do ppl suck up 2 u... wanna b wif u.... n then, they backstab u... "it's onlee a joke" they sae... like a game to them... follow then backstab ji shi trust is "worthless" in terms of $$... it's much more worth than $$ itself it much more worth than a sonofabitch hu thinks he's smart, damn great n popular BC.... i'll make u b4 christ! i'll make u prostrate b4 christ! screwedupballzofshit... once bitten twice shy... yet we're s'pposed 2 gif 2nd chances is this wad we're s'pposed 2 do? get hurt for some guy we wanna befren? i'm leaving man... no more telling of secrets... not worth e risk i wish i cud juz go up, punch a hole in his head, n get away wif it these kinda guys shud juz gotohell asap... not needed "waa... teja arrhz... not tt great larhz... fight larhz... oh fuck! zhao arhz..." born cockylousyfuckingloser... bc.... more like cb knnbccb... so pissed... spoil mi mood... i wuz so ready 2 gif up being a loner lorhz... well... yarhz... i took this long 2 fully trust daryl wif almost anything... i tried doing e same 2 ppl i onlee knew for a yr... FAILURE! tehgo walked into the light @ 10/09/2002 11:08:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, October 08, 2002 wah i've had it wif e xams! mi left eye is siao... i'm having double vision!!! on ONE eye!!! i wanna b 18 nowz... so i can get e laser op for eyes... eagle eye vision!! prey on rabbits! hahaz i'm thinking of after xams too much... well... nvm... i think i might sleep soon... e perks r wearing off... may e guidance of e souls allow thee passage into e world of bane (i.e. byebye n haf a nice day) tehgo walked into the light @ 10/08/2002 11:24:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Rhapsody : Power of e Dragonflame Rhapsody : Emerald Sword Rhapsody : Rain of Flames Rhapsody : Symphony of e enchanted lands Rhapsody : Legendary Tales 5 albums of medieval heavy metal oh good god, there's math on thursday chinese n science on fridae haiz... fav n hated on same dae... lee hu damn cute... e way he speaks n acts i quote jerome," no i'm not gay" i miss e old daes... when evryone i knew wuz alive is it tt hard 2 get over wif? rethinking... brain dying... eyes sleepy hahaz y m i up then? nutz frm mugging if evrything wuz so simple as 2 juz die, i wud but no... it's a vicious cycle i rmbed 2dae... so lame i wuz trying 2 balance a quarter of a rice ball on a wide spoon then it fell on mi lap... summore i sed "balanced wad" then instinctively, "oh fuck" came out of mi mouth i reacted n sed 2 mi cuzzie " i din sae nething, u din hear nething" wah zai... muz haf been influenced by klaz liaoz whole day "fuck" this "fuck" tt summore mi keyboard binding all wrong... @ change places wif " haiz.... lit is unmuggable... i luv fights..... yet evryone runs frm mi... lolz i'm lonelee... wun nebody help me? i juz finally awokend mi mind... i'm alone... cuz i dun haf nething special in mi liaoz dun leave mi... pleez... i dun wanna b alone no... not again.... ahhh... ahhh no.... dun... omg... i'm ripping mi heart... i can't reach for u... i'm juz missing... nnngh... ah hahh hah... hahhhhz... *wail* i'll nvr make it... dis time... i muz make it... n i'll nvr let go cuz it's not mi... cuz u're part of mi... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/08/2002 11:18:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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finished vedas like... 5 yrs ago... hahaz... i'm more into religious studies than academics i'm a super pro sleeper can sleep even after taking coffee... chicken's essence n tt 'orrible tasting cider... blearh... now i noe y neth nick's mr owl nvr sleep in e nite, sleep in klaz... wah bez m i leaving mi old frenz? it seems like it... wah damn... okiez... i shall do sth aboz it after mi op n kyushu... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/08/2002 10:31:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 What Kind of Fruit Are You? brought to you by Quizilla so happy... now neth has msn at longlonglong last now mi n him alwaes chatting... bcuz of war3 lam oso.... hahaz... finding ways 2 make more frenz btw pplz, noe hu's chow wen yan? clan member frm tchs... dunno reeli hu... gd god... mugging has killed our sense now... neth is now mugging war3 strats... lam is mugging war3 games... mi mugging is playing... yam iz asking mi if i wanna mug, i.e. play evrything i mugged is stuck in mi head... i thinking of covalent bonds when i sleep!!! nvm.... got rhapsody's rage of e winter 2 pei wo sui... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/08/2002 10:14:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Sunday, October 06, 2002  Which Garbage Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  What Stone Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  What Sort of Romantic Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  What Is Your True Aura Colour? brought to you by Quizilla  What box do you get put in? brought to you by Quizilla  What Element Are You? brought to you by Quizilla hmmz.... i think i overmugged... can't reeli think... i think tt's gd... oh damn... now i feel busted.... sleepy.... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/06/2002 08:49:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Friday, October 04, 2002 xam stress.... can c things ppl dun reeli wanna show in e beginning of e year danli bcoming damn bastard... mebbe cuz of chee bye calling his parents sad guy.... hardly can play com, kena scolding evrytime get bad grades it's like, he wants 2 rush n b 18, so he can get rid of his parents' hold over him eddy's very ok now, bsides e joke like, 5 mil ppl... he seems quite pissed at danli... yam too but of cos, yam's quite irritating well... since ri gep alwaes kena confinement no contact wif express even, let alone ppl frm other schs, unless they ur old frenz we shud stick together, cuz ppl may despise us nvm, juz wish tt we cud do e hist drama again so fun, so funny... pls reply 2 mi, if u guys hu saw it enjoyed it... gl for ur mugging n xams, juz believe in urself, nothing's more impt than tt oso, thankiez YJ, for changing mi clan rank, cheered mi up after a day of hell thankiez, to all hu haf done e same, n those hu i can confide in tehgo walked into the light @ 10/04/2002 05:33:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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i'm blogging some stuff i din rmb i evr did yest, i dreamt of nice things... mi frenz n i were going out wif some frenz, galz as well then it wuz like, after some test or sth, we were changing n it started freezing... (aircon timer sth wrong... after 1 hr i felt like a chicken in a freezer) woke up, off aircon manually, lose valuable time for sleep, then go back 2 sleep againz next time, i dreamt of mi n ri frenz rushing off, like aboz 2 miss a ride i saw lee hu, n james, n zhun wei weird thing is, onlee lee hu wuz wearing sth outta e ordinary batik shirt wif long pants then we were leaving n poof... i woke up tell mi, mi dreams, do u ever mean sth or juz wad i wish for? sleep, sleep, sleep, get 2 mi at e correct time larhz... well, GD LUCK N TRY UR BEST AT E XAMS EVRYONE! tehgo walked into the light @ 10/04/2002 12:17:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Wednesday, October 02, 2002 thankie 2 quah, c cheong, ermin, tsn, paul lim n all e teachers for giving us children's dae gifts even tho we ain't kiddies no more nvm, i shud concentrate on xams, but i mugged evrything 4 times n yet, all not fully in mi head maths i die liaoz.... hist too... thanks 2 stoopid source based graphs ah graphs... y u so ma fan n so confusing? source based ah source based y doreen lim so liddat wan? sighz... well.... i juz found out i game too much fell asleep during e geog dreamt of war3 tactic n it werked! hahaz... super tactician or too much playing? i'm so lonely.... i feel something... empty inside of mi not mi stomach... roflmaoz... (btw, roflmao iz rollin on floor laffing mi ass off) sth tt i dun think anyone can fill a longing inside of mi t juz resurfaced after all tt lying tt i haf filled it sth's holding mi back frm harming mi frenz materialistically, i think it's mi pendant mentally, i think it's juz mi hahaz.... took off mi pendant n played soccer more rough 2dae thrashed 8 ppl at rugby day b4 yez... tore thru them like tearing thru a paper wall not wearing mi pendant i shud get a punching bag... chee siong... no larhz... tt's too cruel to chickens a real punching bag? mebbe.... or i juz spend mi $$ on fighting games hahaz.... stress relievers no wonder i alwaes wanna go mi cuzzie's home... there so fun no pressure, no pressure... hehez.... 2dae i broke up a fight using miself as dang jian pai always werks... OBS... severely obese ppl like ting yong cannot go i can go, cuz i onlee overweight... not severely... shit waileong can't go... hahaz... no leg haiz.... i c a blank in mi mind when i think of emotions cuz... i hardly haf any left i'm losing mi emotions... come back... pleez.... check tt out! i c rhapsody albums!!! woohoo... lovely band... fantasy but most ppl wun like it i think 1 of mi fav songs is "power of e dragonflame" "for e king, for e lands, for e mountains...." can't wait for xams 2 b over we wud b free... for a while i wish we wud nvr ever grow older we can alwaes grow up mentally but i wish we nvr grow old... then no need all these tests no need ppl dying... no need frenz getting in2 trouble bladed hands? wtf izzat? oops... thinking 2 miself againz tehgo walked into the light @ 10/02/2002 09:02:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, October 01, 2002 
What type of Bishounen are you? Find out at artificial-soul.net by Rin. sooo cool!! Kenshin! swords... tt reminds mi... swords frm Kyushu selfless hero... wad self? hahaz tehgo walked into the light @ 10/01/2002 09:27:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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hmmz... yea... tt sounds rite... most impt esp now but no matter... i'll go on alone cuz i'll die alone but wif mi frenz, i'll live longer multiple cheers 2 frenz... offering 2 b 1 to those tt dun haf gd frenz lolz.... nvr had tt coming... juz blurted it out tehgo walked into the light @ 10/01/2002 09:24:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 Take the quiz here! lolz... this best describes mi... mi true side to life but i like frenz... fren-orientated? hahaz... weird idea well.... 10 days 2 end of xams clan meeting... frenz meeting... go lanning n hang out yayz... i'm bored stiff at home... com too slow 2 play games betta than war3 sighz..... T-I-R-E-D gl for ur xams evryone study 2 ur limit dun harm urself over it onlee sec 2 U is e time 2 reeli panic i'm already panicking tehgo walked into the light @ 10/01/2002 09:20:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
