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Sunday, December 29, 2002 step, step, turn... step, step, turn... repeat until u r sian... n then it ends, like this, step, step, turn, cross-slash... end in a nice ring~ :p yeah, n i needa remind miself gonna kill eugene nxt wk... bloody bugger... sensei say dun use technique he pian pian use technique... like sensei sed... 4th lock, yonkyo used 2 rupture blood vessel in e wrist n e point where it wuz applied now blackening i.e. bruise, dead blood cells, etc... so, evidence of blood vessel rupture... n chao pain... hehz... oh wait, i think i took revenge liaoz i so experienced, of cos i noe where 2 rupture no lah, achalli mi right hand e technique tyco wan i find it chao ez, left hand can almost find it immediately mebbe like, gimme 5 secs, n then i sure find liaoz sighz... overly stressed mi muscles yest... i'm feeling so dead... like, oh pain, i move, painpainpain... lean back on chair, get up, painpainpain sensei iz missing... ok, i mean, not in sg i think sighz... sensei ralph took over for 1 lesson... hmmz, i'm beginning 2 understand y sj n michelle like their coach so much hehz... i'm being sentimental here... then e leaders took over for yest lesson, but, sensei iz sensei, can tell e diff feeling u haf, esp since i lian aikido since 4 y/o ken training iz lesser liaoz... chao boring... tanto training not so bad... it's e "adv" training tt sux... ok, not sux, but boring larhz... FYI, ken iz e long wooden sword i haf tanto iz e short wooden knife... jo iz e wooden staff, which we dun haf =( katana iz e nice normal metal jap sword, think u all noe tt waki-zashi iz like a ninja version of it, i.e. shorter tt's y, in rurouni kenshin aka samurai x kenshin uses a reversed-edge katana, aoshi uses a tanto n waki-zashi... dai-katana iz e longer version of e katana, heavier n less agile, muz use 2 hands suppose i wuz boring u wif tt... heroes 4 iz ok larhz, can't say more cuz mi com i think ram no enuff... pictures will haf glitch, like, muz wipe away wrong pic using e pointer... like those scratch-n-win cards Nurseman iz a lame jap series... time iz 5 past 10, n i'm not tired... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/29/2002 10:07:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, December 28, 2002 sighz... i wish i cud reeli feel e reins n e thing under mi no, not tt kinda way, but, u noe, like riding a horse a pegasus, a gryphon, a dragon, a roc... juz into tt dark, black night sky... n then... wif e wind blowing against mi face, i so wish, tt, i cud help others... reeli, i can larhz, physically, i.e. protection against certain ppl yet... i can't help ppl mentally, i'm not a wordy person speak 2 mi, n most likely, i'd express lots i gotta say in e least words possible, bad habit i haf... like mi blog name, so many meanings, yet 1 word i sat on e ele in chiangmai, wif koo we all did, well, almost all, xcept for sum so peaceful, ok, scary when e slopes became a wee steep even bc can admit, a wee scary, but it wuz exhilarating... e slow amble of these huge creatures... it's like, so beeg, yet so peaceful... unlike e t-rex n such, but well... i like eles... sighz... in ns, y cudn't we ride horses instead of tanks? used 2 such late nite blogging... i dun think i'll b ready for sch hehz... i'd awaken again, yet, i hope this iz e bez persona Rhayne... rha(psody), i.e. calm music y... dunno larhz, i'm asking... n... end... end mi thots, mi hatred... e... thee, wadever... rhayne sounds like reign, ending mi reign of terror... so there's peace... ride a dragon i wanna believe, tt magic n myth exist... cuz there r runes in e stonehenge celtic runes filled wif e hidden power of e magi god, i shud b rite, runes hold e power of all e magi... if onlee i cud read them... auspicium melioris aevi? sux 2 tt... auspicium draco... hope for a dragon! :p hope no prefects in RI read this, or i'm doomed... hehz... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/28/2002 01:35:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Friday, December 27, 2002 ooh... e awakenings hurt... i wuz a mess this morn, i wanted 2 break sth, e onlee thing left wuz a b'dae pressie frm her onlee thing left fragile... changed 2 persona D then i like, turned persona S throwing mi stuffed toys arnd... sorrie stuffed toys, i muz apologize sounds stupid, but i believe tt they haf sth in them n then i changed again, 2 persona E i sat on mi bed, cried lots, n thinking y cudn't i die... i wanna change, i dun care for better or worse... if i were a monstrosity, i'd hide in congo... damn, n i went back 2 persona T... i luv e world i sed, i hate joey tho... n then, e world went black as i collapsed back on mi bed completely unconscious, i.e. not sleeping like i fainted... blew a fuse or sth... n then i awoke, this time... sth changed i'm not persona D,E,S or T... it's like, persona... persona... *thinks of a new name*... i'd say R, for rational it's tiring mi now... i wish i were juz 1 persona hao liaoz, i sian liaoz... huan lai huan qu... even i haf a wish i'd still wish 2 fly n b a dragon or demon, balor, sth liddat yet, i oso wish i can stop thinking so much gather mi courage, n change mi mind i'm trapped in tt damn web tt web called luv... n stuck... like a fly in a spider's web it's like stripping a mage of his mana render him useless... but no... i muz divert channel mi full potential 2 hw now... as well as studies... i hope sensei understands i noe he will, he's like another father 2 mi... money can't buy evrything... words can't express evrything... art can't paint evrything... wars can't win all... e past can onlee show u ur mistakes, as well as wad u enjoyed... but it kills one 2 think, y din i do this? or y i'd do this? we're all riding on e wings of destiny n yet, onlee we can change its path... unless we do sth, it'll juz bring us 2 wherever it wants 2 go we're all in e same universe, same dimension there may b another teja, or daryl, or shunhui, or marian, or jw, or shijun, or mich or lee hu, or nick, or lam, or ~n e list goes on~ in another universe but, BUT, he/she may haf a better life, or worse, hu noez? yet, they r diff frm wad we r presently, n so wake up frm our dreams, our nitemares n wadever we do now, aim for our dreams, no matter how absurd they may b even if e dream tells u 2 live wif dinosaurs, aim 2 create a time or cloning machine e dream tells u 2 win all e sailing championships, do ur bez e dream tells u u still miss sum1, change it, make tt sum1 come back e dream tells u 2 protect ur frenz, do tt, e dream tells u 2 alwaes stay cute n act kiddy, make it so... e dream tells u, u're gonna die... tt one, i think tt onlee happend 2 mi e dream tells u, WE'RE HU WE R!, listen 2 it, cuz it's rite e dream told mi, in death, i'll come back, even as a ghost until mi family n frenz r safe, or gone, then i'll rest... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/27/2002 11:43:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Wednesday, December 25, 2002 Can't u c, i need mi solitude, frm Saiyuki e movie... yet... i dun wanna b alone... cuz i'm awake, awake as mi, n onlee mi emotions can change tt i'm e naive lil kid once more, onlee not tt naive... n i'm in control of miself (i hope)... i'm imagining lotsa stuff... so MUDs do werk yet... i noe e reality... in mi own power i cud b a hitman for someone, yet dirty mi soul n hands i cud b a guardian, n yet, i noe onlee 4 some ppl i wish u were here, mi dæmon, 1 tt i can speak 2, 1 tt can tok back 2 mi 1 tt noes mi, 1 tt'll b part of mi since mi beginning... i'll luv u, i promise, as much as i luv wad i cud... n then u'll b a form 2 remind mi of such things... n u'll b there 2 advise mi when i feel lost, protect mi when i'm broken n oso, giv mi a new purpose... for u wud speak 2 mi n i wud 2 u, n we wud b like 1, if there reeli were doorways 2 another world a world tt granted mi a dæmon, i'll go, n then come back, mi life started here n muz end here... for this iz where mi emotions truly lie... n wif mi dæmon whether male or female (usually it iz of e opp. sex) i wud care for it cuz it wuz part of mi n e universe... n luv it i wud... i feel so disheartend 2 find none... i m master 2 none n mi master iz none... mebbe i haf e power within miself... if i juz cud, i dun mind losing mi emotions, i wanna save e lives i noe, e lives of beasts n mankind alike for i wanna b, e sorcerer of nature, e druid... e Celts dormant power... e Stonehenge... runes of power etched there... i muz decipher it... each race had their magi... e Celts their druids... e Norse their gods, e Greeks as well... Egyptians n their curse bearing tombs covered wif hieroglyphs Chinese divinations n talismans... Indian magic in gurus... i wanna awaken e magic i haf e magic 2 speak 2 e animals.... awaken within mi... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/25/2002 12:33:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, December 24, 2002 oooooohhhh GOD i feel utmost useless now... i juz realised tt for all mi heart i tried 2 kill i still like her... no diff... n i awoke juz onlee, after lost in e multitude of universes shown by e trilogy, i thot of it... no... no diff... i cudn't kill mi heart completely mebbe it shud b ended, snuffed out like a dæmon when its master wuz killed poof... out like a candle... if i had a dæmon it mite haf been a diff matter i cud stay happy wif mi dæmon all mi life... but no, i dun haf 1, can't c none, n can't deny miself either... it's been awhile since i've last thot dis, n it juz came back 2 mi a blow thru e ribs... rite there, on mi left chest... wuz playing mi fav MUD, nodeka... kinda distracted mi gd thing too... imagine, a blue drake sorcerer, then a ice drakontos elemental sage, later on, a frost dragon planar sage... n yet this feeling i'd lost for arnd 1/2 a yr now... so hard 2 kill it, n when it died, i thot, so... tt's e end no more, no more had i needed 2 hide anithing or get pissed off at bc y? cuz then he'll noe, i dun like her animorez... i wish... if anione cud giv mi a single wish, 2 b a dragon, or a mythical beast, cuz in tt way, we definitely cudn't b 2gether... a beast n human no, no beauty n e beast crap... i want out... i'm soughting out higher powers for this, change mi... into a dragon of legend... a creature of myth... i dun even mind... dun even mind e thot of being a beast wif no more conscience mi guides alwaes told mi nvr 2 envy a beast cuz it had no conscience or consciousness 2 hear n understand e doctrine, n wuz a sorrowful state... dragons, creatures of myth were wise they had e power of speech... n conscience... live within mi... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/24/2002 10:58:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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= Lord of the Rings trilogy by J.R.R. Tolkien! so superly nice sia! n altho a bitta luv stuff u wud nvr known it till e end... an artifact found in each bk... e Alethiometer, sth tt tells e truth, n iz chao complex e Subtle Knife, a knife tt on e steel edge cuts anithing like butter, e other side being able 2 cut windows into other worlds e Amber Spyglass, a spyglass tt cud c Dust, Shadows, DARK MATTER! e whole story revolves arnd 2 children, a gal at first, 2nd bk she finds a guy frm e Oxford we noe, so she frm another universe wif an Oxford 3rd bk they come 2gether, be *reeli* gd frenz, n grow up 2 luv each other n oso, it revolves arnd this Dust, or Shadows, or Dark Matter it iz sed 2 b original sin, but achalli, it's consciousness any being conscious of itself wud b surrounded by it... yet onlee e mulefa ( a race of people, gazelle-like, wif trunks like an ele, wif 2 horns, n wif a diamond-shaped frame, i.e. 1 leg in frnt n back 2 in e middle, n they roll on hard fruits like wheels ) can c it n wif e Amber Spyglass, anione can... but nice part iz, on e 3rd bk it iz sed, tt God, the Authority, the Lord, the Father, the Spirit, Yah Weh (there were a few names in it, some weird names too) wuz not e creator, n all angels were made of light, n Dust, so he wuz e first 2 come into being frm Dust, n he claimed tt he created e angels this mite b true u noez, nicenice, but then they speak of a war it's reeli a nice bk, n i'll flood mi blog wif mi whole story, so get e bk n read it! Northern Lights, The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass... go read so shiok... ahh, nvr felt so bookwormish :P i stuck at it frm 3 am (cudn't sleep, had slept at 5 pm), slept at 9 am, woke up at 2 n finished e 2 bks (i read e first last yr) waah, spent mi whole chrissy eve on bks... haven't done hw yet :p well... i feel... deflated... like mi whole mind has went out, yet still in a mess if i had a dæmon like e humans in Lyra's universe, n dæmons can change shape till u're mature, then they'll settle i hope mine wud at least b an ele, or panther, mi 2 fav animals.... well, will still b on 2 settle mi mind... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/24/2002 10:31:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, December 23, 2002 when u wake up hot n sweaty, it's usually a nightmare rite? yeah, had tt wuzzit yest morn? yeah, aniwaez muz b too much Metal Gear Solid 2 n War3 whew... imagine this, i c all of us in RIGEP2001 including ex-rosythians... some not reeli there i think n e world, wuz at war... n e bez part wuz... we were e enemy... ok, mebbe saviours... n then i saw sth lyk skynet in T2 for some unknown reason, it wuz in a mess a mix of e Dark ages, wif magi n all, n adv techs n oh so funny i wuz a beeg warrior wif some robotic guards on miself, n a well... warhammer... n i wuz next 2... next 2... i think neth n daniel li yeah, neth wuz a well... sniper daniel ran arnd wif 2 desert eagles... all guns... sia lah... even e gals were supporting wif some kinda moving fortress... n then... pong fell... juz dropped, stunned by tasers i turned bloodlusted, i muscled mi way thru e enemy destroyed many botz... n i sorta opened a path n then we all chionged... i wuz slashed here n there... bleeding, not dead yet... i dreamt it... so freaky bloody n all, yet not wanting out yet in e case, i saw e fort destroying many, n others came 2 help us finally, i saw a warp cannon, e 1 tt iz sed 2 warp things 2 other dimensions aim for all of us, n charging, can hear e high pitched sound of energy collection n a dark orb was forming... on our side, our fort wuz doing sth else it looked like a gateway, n then i heard a 'boom' as e gateway opened a vacuum destroyed all e mechs n bots arnd e fort, e orb grew as huge as a house, n after tt, a loud crack wuz heard e force was so great it pushed us back, n then, i woke up in sweat thinking mi frenz were gone... oh n i forgot 2 mention, e force turned mi arnd, so achalli in mi sleep i turned n smacked mi face against mi cuzzie's bed i.e. jap style, short, yet thick wooden bedpost (?) n a thin matress n tt i smacked straight into e wood :P hahaz... stay alive, 2 one n all, i juz hope i dun kena kick outta gep... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/23/2002 12:08:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Sunday, December 22, 2002 kkz, so i did update this damn soon.... tales of phantasia has nice openings so does star ocean gravitation iz nice, chobits n fruits basket too corny, cute too... anime rox lil kiddies r so cute, i saw a cute lil boy n gal bro n sis shud b, they were running arnd e mrt chasing each other in almost complete silence no screaming, no imagination, juz catching hahaz. then, oh so innocent they were they looked at mi, stared a bit, n i think mi face changed when i saw them, cuz they walked towards mi, not run away so happy! i so happy! i'm not miself... confirm liaoz :p tehgo walked into the light @ 12/22/2002 10:28:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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lost track of time relaxing... wif sum study done here n there n then i had 2 move back, n now, back 2 mi present state e state of e void... c mi face n u'll noe, i've nothing left nothing in mi mind, nothing in mi soul i find freedom n happiness in mi cuzzies' n now, mi mom wuz lyk, 'hmmz... if u reeli wanna stay, i'll tok 2 ur dad again, since u say u wun mind travelling frm lakeside 2 bishan esp at 5.30am to reach sch at 6.30+' wah biang, i'm now a nice ball so fun 2 kick arnd sia, wanna move then moved now asked back, n then, MOVE AGAIN! shit sia altho i secretly still wanna go mi cuzzies' sigh... haiz... shan't update this soon tehgo walked into the light @ 12/22/2002 06:46:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, December 17, 2002 soooooo many ppl working... i shall make it a point next dec work too... lee hu working in his father's toy shop marian at mac's n mos, many ppl achalli i werk at quek's lan shop :P sighz... i've been lanning so much... aniwaez YES! can move! got mi father's pissed permission, i.e. "MOVE LAH, MOVE LAH!" soooo... i'll b EVEN MORE anti-social... i mean JURONG for gdness sake, i'll b in a nice home, not many quarrels, n i hope 2 forget evrything here, even, her, so tt i can start anew... even if it iz juz for a yr... i'll wish 2 forget... sighz... shijun wuz rite... it takes a lifetime 2 forget a person... whom u noe... we met... sometime in e movie called life... translated frm "Queen of Lunch" or "Ranchi no Jou" gimme a meaning, i'll find it i think, at another home... this home, too many memories... i can forget evrything... yay... i'll forget all mi emotions, n b happy once more, like a little kid, innocent again... no dark feelings... no hatred no anger, no nothing... i'll b back 2 Teja again... thank e lord thank all e ppl hu supported mi decision 2 move, but most of all, THANKS 2 MI DAD HU LET MI MOVE!!! whew... all mi thots juz now flew away, n this iz all i can think of thanks dad, luv u... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/17/2002 10:33:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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i wuz wif mi frenz... n parents... n i wuz dead ok, not truly dead... as a ghost... not those in cartoons i'm like i wuz alive... but juz can walk thru stuff... n i wuz STILL AT SCH!! dammit... n we played stuff like i wuz still alive... yet they all knew i wuz dead i din need 2 eat, drink or sleep... but i had 2 wear stuff 2 play soccer... i mean, e ball wud've gone thru mi, but i had 2 wear this suit how i wore it, dunno, then they showed mi how i died... it wuz grotesque... i wuz ran over thrice by cars... 1 tt maimed mi, a lorry behind it ran over mi, i wuz on e brink of death, n e last bus, juz crushed mi totally... yech n there wuz another dream... this time... i wuz fighting... fighting for mi life, for others... where? middle earth... when? wif gandalf... onlee i wuz a dragon... drake rather, n wielding nothing nothing but mi own bare hands... n there wuz a bloodbath... orcs all over us... n then... i awoke after bruising mi knee against e wall mi mom wuz like, wad wuz tt great knock on our wallz? hehez... underestimated mi own strength... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/17/2002 03:59:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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super bored n super pissed wif miself i wanna tok business wif mi dad, yet i can't bring miself 2 say tt i wanna move in a rite tone i'm skipping breakfast almost evryday, can nvr sleep past 8 normally, i juz say,"screw e world i live in", jump arnd, kick e walls, n wrestle wif mi soft toys :P then i sleep again... e whole time now, it's all thots, thots n more thots i can't talk... sometimes i wish i were psychic... then i can literally speak mi mind hehe... nvr heard of someone wanting 2 move house, n yet leave e rest of his family behind rite? sighz... someone giv mi courage, n tell mi wad 2 do... jw sez i shud move, matt sez i shud move, even mi maternal side of mi family supports mi haiyaz... i juz realised another thing... i haf not spoken a vulgarity for 2 mths n i like ketchup but haven't taken it for 3 mths... amazing... changing faces mi frenz... i'm feeling confused, pissed, but no luv, no happiness, no chance... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/17/2002 12:33:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Sunday, December 15, 2002  What's Your Sad Song? brought to you by Quizilla  tehgo walked into the light @ 12/15/2002 11:09:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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 What fantasy creature are you? Find out Here Drakmorden, derived frm Drake, a humanoid dragon... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/15/2002 10:54:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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i'm vampiric? dunno, not sure... i came home yest morn, on train back i saw e beautiful sunrise... n then, in e tunnel, i felt e sun come out fully n then, i felt drained... sapped of mi energy i slept at 1, woke up at 6, still jing shen bao man onlee when e sun rose, i felt tired, dead, empty i'm still tired, i hope dis dun last past e holz or i'm dead in sch sia, e teachers wud call mi parents up sae, "y ur son whole day sleep in our classes harhz?" sigh... still sleepy, mebbe i'll go back 2 sleep... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/15/2002 10:43:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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last nite wuz annual dinner, n for some reason, i came home, n felt super dead n then, dis morn, supposed 2 awaken, i din, n mi pop sed," dun ever ask mi for anithing again" so? i'm moving, no questions asked, not asking even, juz stating n 2 think tt even if i laff n joke wif mi family, no diff there's no happiness found, like it's all fake i once sed, "gimme a warhammer" now i sae, "gimme back mi frenz" dis iz a new side of mi not even i haf seen hard hearted, emotionless... nothing... i've seen Teja, e BFG... Tingdi, one hu wuz happy, n occasionally fought SoulBane, one hu wuz nvr happy, n violent now, i name this one Drakmorden... funny, dun u think? i name mi personalities sigh... awaken... awaken, anione of u... juz not this one... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/15/2002 10:40:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, December 14, 2002 crap, mi sis din rmb tt he wuz sent for grooming sighz... mi heart softened onlee 4 animals... reeli... i care minimum aboz mi family... mi cuzzie wuz like asking mi, "touchwood, but if ur sis kena accident, wad wud u do?" i sed, "if kena then sure die liao mah" he replied, "i mean if she survives, onlee barely, wad wud u do?" i gave him a blank, heartless, emotionless expression "end her misery faster" he wuz like, "y u arh, like no more luv for ur sis?" same expression, "y shud i now or b4, or ever?" god help e person hu wud anger mi now... i dunno wad i can do in dis state... if i can juz say 2 end mi sis misery faster, sighz... many thoughts r racing thru mi head i wanna blog them, yet not all can surface at e rite time i've confirmed mi situation, i shall ask mi dad n then, move 2 mi cuzzies' home, even mi aunt din object mi doggies r cute... animals r always cute... i saw a dead cat on e road back home mi family wuz like, "oh..." n i wanted, in mi heart, 2 giv it a decent burial... giv mi a change lord, so tt i can help these animals tt they can live in peace wifout ppl disturbing... mother gaia, giv mi ur trust... i can do it... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/14/2002 03:16:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Wednesday, December 11, 2002 i think mi heart has finally given up it has changed... hardened... mi 2nd dog went lost 2dae nvr found him, he wuz a stray aniwae i juz sed "oh" when i heard e news if i were truly me, i wud haf ran out 2 c if it were nearby rage fills mi constantly... so i play warcraft or FPS 2 let off steam if i were a vampire, then i cud fly rite? i lost a kitten in camp too... found it in sch, it wuz oso a stray... n then, go for "sunrise" hike at lower pierce... i left it near a bush in sch... came back 12 hrs later no more, no longer in sch... i nvr gave up until after e camp... tt's when i began 2 stop caring i've changed much, i reeli have... mi mom wuz like, i had 2 rush 2 sch for ur concert... i felt like saying, not mi prob... damn mi... how cud i think tt? it's no longer mi it seems... i wanna leave this home, go 2 mi cuzzies'... there, i can find part of wad i lost after coming 2 ri happiness... freedom... me... even for real's piano version no longer make mi feel anithing it's juz a song, n mi jugular veins hurt like crap... lee hu's asking mi 2 buy mi 4th war3 asap cuz i promised tt once i got it i'll lend him... i'm scared i'll b as hard-hearted as... soulbane... life? not worth it any longer... i'm living life de guo qie guo... i'm as gd as dead... mi com has no more games but renewal n now tt's down, i'm juz... so sick of it... dun wanna b alone animore... come back little ones... come back 2 mi... save mi... frm mi own demise... simeon disturbed mi e whole time while lanning, n i gave a hard thwack wif out thinking... someone tell mi wad 2 do... i'm so confused... christmas... mi family dun celebrate it... yet mi cuzzies do... n then again... i cud alwaes dress up like santa... then can haf fun wif e lil kiddies in orchard... sux... lil kiddies r cute, samuel agreed as well yet i haf lost it... i juz lost e last straw... no mood 2 laff, no mood 2 cry... no mood 2 play, no mood 2 sleep... yet i'm sleepy, but 8 hrz iz enuff... vandread e 2nd stage iz amazing tho... a place where men n women were separated... on 2 planets Meger n Talark, e leader of each planet being Master GrandMa and GrandPa Meger iz female, Talark male, n yet, both GrandMa n GrandPa were husband n wife their kid? Hibiki Tokai... kept in cold sleep until he woke up 14 yr ago frm tt time fighting alongside women, n some of them like him, he made many allies against Earth, Earth being e villain ppl of Earth wanted 2 b pure, so they harvested organs of all kinds 2 prolong their life voices frm one planet, skin frm e Meranas, spines frm another planet... healthy organs frm corpses of yet another planet... n Hibiki iz e first generation, i.e., shud b 70+ y/o yet he's like, 15? Meger n Talark's forces saw e determination of Hibiki, Meia, Dita n Jura, Hibiki having a Vanguard (sth like a gear, i.e. warrior robot tt can b piloted) e other 3 galz having Dreads, which r like fighter planes of space yet these 4 came in contact wif e Paeksis Plagma, some sphere wif infinite energy n like a spirit, wif its own free will kept as e energy source of e Nirvana... Hibiki n Meia can merge into a Dragon-type Vandread Hibiki n Dita as a more powerful Warrior-type Vandread n lastly, Hibiki n Jura as a Crab-type Vandread Dragon counts for speed, Warrior for strength, and Crab for defense (it can defend a whole planet!) Meranas came 2 help, so did those ppl tt lost their voices Meger n Talark helped too, as i sed, n Gascogne, a female personnel aboard e Nirvana, hu knew more aboz losing loved ones than e rest "sacrificed herself arnd a mth ago, her machine getting stabbed by an enemy clone of Vandread Dita, n she swung it into e Earth's Harvest mother ship thot 2 b dead, they fought madly, they had determination, but she came back dis time, wif e Harvest ship, after initiating its self-repair system, so tt makes them even better 3 enemy Harvest ships came in, 1 destroyed by Talark's floating mine defences Dreads n Vanguards alike aimed for e 2nd, Meranas' n Labbat's (some guy they met, hu came frm e planet wifout voices but telepathy, he can speak cuz he made a pact wif Earth n retained his voice) fleets aimed for e 3rd, lastly, e Earth's most powerful ship, one tt destroys unwanted planets, came in, n wif a cute little robot, Pyoro,'s help, all 4 merged into a super Vandread, warrior type yet having speed n those disks tt can defend planets one beam frm it n e mother ship wuz almost dead, 2dae iz e last episode i think, yeah, but it has self repair lah... aniwae... Trust wuz Vandread's opening song, ending being Himegoto, or Secret, and Justice being Vandread 2nd Stage opening, Yes together as its ending these 4 haf great meaning in their names... but so wad? now i dun feel anithing... sighz... tok so much, i still need someone 2 help mi... Tingdi... awaken... again... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/11/2002 02:20:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 What Kind Of Vampire Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  Where Did Your Soul Originate? brought to you by Quizilla  What Breed of Hamster Are You? brought to you by Quizilla song bo... wild like wad? a tiger? more like a bloody tapir
izzat reeli true?  You're wind! You are a very kind and sympathetic person. Whoever DOESN'T like you has a mental disorder, because you are a loving and caring gentle soul. What element are you? blearh... i think i'm gonna choke on air  What star sign are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla haha, like, beeg diff... tehgo walked into the light @ 12/11/2002 12:16:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, December 10, 2002 sighz... lil kiddies r so cute... even joseph... little pri 4 kiddie so poor thing, cry cuz ppl threw his new shoe arnd haiyaz... hu wuz it hah? summore kena framed i help him find shoe, nvr find him so they sed i took it... sighz... concert wuz a success... thanks senthil, benjamin supporting bassoon n keyboard players n then our string ensemble so song got mistake a bit here n there, but overall damn gd... song bo summore i skip all training until 3 wks ago roflmao... but there's sth not gd sze made mi bring back e d. bass 2 practice... aiyah... another thing... mi family mite b disowning mi i think or izzit e other way arnd? aniwae, i haf nothing here 2 come back 2, so i thot, i'll stay wif mi cuzzies even after holz then, if later, much later, i'll stay in a forest or mountain n keep 2 mi roots, e ancestral roots long forgotten tt man evolved frm other "lesser" beings, n tt i shud return 2 them soon... n there's another thing i wanna say 2dae... "when e whole world turns against u, dun cower away, cuz there's at least 1 person supporting u whole-heartedly, warmly, friendly, n nothing can change tt, if there iz trust n belief, as well as, confidence... just believe in urself, believe in ur frenz, dun giv up, or it'll herald e end of ur battle..." tehgo walked into the light @ 12/10/2002 11:55:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, December 07, 2002 life iz worthless n priceless at e same time... i think tt now, n i m gonna digress... mi fren asked mi, y do i blog, no, not for sharing thots, but 2 rethink n reflect on stuff i thot i wrote, i felt, i did... n it'll bring light 2 mi mind i'll noe wad 2 do next time, but for now, there's onlee 1 thing i'm gonna say "nvr giv up, nvr giv in, yet when e need arises, do so cuz life's too short 2 create enemies" tehgo walked into the light @ 12/07/2002 11:27:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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 What were you in your past life brought to you by Quizilla tehgo walked into the light @ 12/07/2002 12:33:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
