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Friday, October 31, 2003 i finally understood qing tian pi li this chen yu chee bye. stupid rain come n go n then when bloody bright, strike lightning hit near mi hse, stupid circuit tripped, whole hse no electricity. a bit shen horhz. then i had 2 bloody turn it all on again. haishz. veri bored. wanna lan again... tehgo walked into the light @ 10/31/2003 07:24:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, October 27, 2003 damn. mi mind's a whirl of stuff now. jquek n qix will juz say it's bcuz of mi 5 mil ppl. i juz dunno lehz. damn tired of thinking. damn tired of werk. y can't we juz slack? gunbound's a gd game, but muz use over net. sighz. i think i better go slp b4 2ml ovrslp. tehgo walked into the light @ 10/27/2003 01:51:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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of so bloody exhausted u can juz slp when u fall. damn tired sia. after yest 1 aikido session put mi out. it's like, hey look, zheng wen's aboz 2 break mi wrist n then he thinks he's doing it correctly, budden achalli it's cuz he's wrong, tt's y i dun go down? cuz bo pian? bugger kia. at least i partnering wen feng for grading. veri not tired now lehz. so... full of energy? i wun say energetic. e thot of another aikido enuff 2 put mi out frm doing more again. they say e diff btwn ppl n "beasts", r tt we haf compassion n power of speech. i think compassion iz more correct. i mean, e barks n other sounds may b their language rite? i onlee truly despise ppl hu make fun of old ppl. seriously. it's so sad 2 see old ppl, going arnd selling cheap stuff, juz so they can earn their money for food. n then stupid buggers waste cash on wad? stocks. 4D. toto. yarh. mi ass they wud strike rich. ppl need us 2 care as much as we need them 2 too. sighz. i'm losing sight of mi true selfish goal. 2 b a paeleontologist. mi own dream. mi dream for miself n miself alone. no matter i b rich or poor. i wanna b wif bones of dragons long past. "dragons of fear". rite~. chinese direct translation. now i think, mebbe i b a zoologist oso can, wif living creatures. or a falconer. juz tt. it's not as selfish as b4, but liddis, m i letting miself down? since 3 i dreamt i wanna b a paeleontologist. now i m juz wavering on mi decision. sighz. nvm, it'll all work out fine. tehgo walked into the light @ 10/27/2003 12:20:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, October 25, 2003 antique cake shop wuz a gd series. hideaki takizawa reminded mi of sum1... i can't seem 2 rmb hu tho... shaman king iz damn nice. but i onlee got until ep 28 :( well. early nov i will get e whole set! i trying 2 rmb evrything i wanted 2 state here. curse mi memory. kinda forgot evrything ^^; oh yeah. finally. sho dan grading 15th nov. damn tt's too close for comfort. sensei juz had to tell mi "u going for sho dan rite? ur time iz up" song bo. sound like doomsday for mi. poor cuzzie. gort o's then now juz after o's do grading summore he nvr went for so long liaoz. if i fail sho dan grading, i may kill miself manz. $440! so much. sighz. but it's mi dream rite? 2 b e bez aikidoka arnd. i dun think tt's possible. yet. hu noez? mad maas allowed us 2 play ps2. so long as she in klaz we can use projector! but all e kick has almost gone out of e holz. or rather, after xams stuffs. mi, fool, yehmin n yabbie were in 1 grp for e praxis - life@play workshop. e bez part wuz tt we thot it wud b a damn lecture. then it wuz achalli quite a fun board game. we were saboing each other. esp poor yehmin. we kept hoping 2 land on e stock exchange space. hope 2 get stock market crash card out. then we did, 3 mins b4 game ended yehmin lost $200000 juz liddat. lol. i think i'm changing lots. i used 2 b a loner. no one wud've known hu i truly wuz. then now, i prefer much more 2 b wif sum1. sum1 meaning mi frenz now. i hate being alone. even if got rpgs for mi 2 play, there's no fun in playing it alone. at least if u play party games or team games, we can laff n make noise 2gether, like for eg, when eddy accidentally scored own goal. he wuz "passing" 2 mi, n he put it too far 2 mi left. even if i dived n tried 2 catch it, i wudn't haf gotten to it. now e sloot lsh say she's pissed wif mi. mebbe if she din change arnd e timing for e xtra klaz, it wudn't clash wif mi aikido training. she asked mi which wuz more impt, chi o's or aikido. i juz sed, e grading costs $440, so she sorta accepted it even tho she looked pissed wif mi. i think she wud've screamed at mi if i sed aikido wuz more impt. it's wad i think rite? i find aikido more impt. i mean, if u were aboz 2 b robbed by a gang, wud chi save ur life? mi ass it wud. yest wuz mi grandma's bdae. mi mom again being vague, told all of us mi grandma coming for dinner. she din say mi grandma coming for lunch too. then in e end, i had 2 tell lee hoo i cudn't lan cuz i thot if we lanned till 3, still in time 2 come back help wif e cooking. budden lunch too, n we wanted 2 reach novena at 10. sighz. sry lee hoo. for e late notice too. enfo's team survival rox. e bez tft mod i've seen. budden liddis i neglecting mi ladder skills. sighz. i tok as if tft iz impt. it's juz another form of escapism. but i can play wif frenz liddat. made frenz wif a californian. he's veri nice. even tho i dunno his real name. but his nick rox. stfukthx. lol. i think if i not playing anithing nowadays, i'll juz go n sleep summore. so lethargic. n now i'll continue mi sit ups. bcuz i stopped during xams 2 mug properly. str iz in us, onlee we muz noe it iz there. dun fret, dun worry. it'll all work out fine. there shudn't b sadness n frustration in this world. bcuz it'll all juz work out fine, somehow. tehgo walked into the light @ 10/25/2003 10:04:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Wednesday, October 15, 2003 tsktsktsk... i shud learn. n thus our souls r forever bound, to e powers of light and dark. e givers of life r but one, yet which doth we look to and face? tehgo walked into the light @ 10/15/2003 08:01:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 You are Fresh Mint. You are caring and friendly. You have a nurturing personality and always help out a friend in need. You are fairly outgoing, and always show a friendly face. You truly care for other people, and you show it. However, you may neglect your own responsibilites or become over involved in your friends' personal affairs. Most Compatible With: Orange Which Tic-Tac Flavor Are You? brought to you by Quizilla tehgo walked into the light @ 10/15/2003 08:00:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 You are Form 8, Demon: The Destroyer. "And The Demon took advantage of the chaos and seized civillization. With grace and style, Demon slit The Goddess's belly and drowned the world in her blood. The Goddess, The Demon, and the world were no more." Some examples of the Demon Form are Seth (Egyptian) and The Horsemen of the Apocalypse (Christian). The Demon is associated with the concept of destruction, the number 8, and the element of earth. His sign is the full moon. As a member of Form 8, you are a very strong willed individual. You don't let others' opinions sway your own and you're usually not afraid to speak your mind. However, some may see you as a bit overly passionate but it's just because you never back down from your values. No matter what, you always do everything with style. Demons are the best friends to have because they will back you up. Which Mythological Form Are You? brought to you by Quizilla tehgo walked into the light @ 10/15/2003 07:58:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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 Your soul is bound to the Ninth Totem, Titan: The Bear. Titan appears as an umber colored bear. He embodies strength, might, flair, and power. He is associated with the color umber, the season of autumn, and the element of earth. His downfall is overbearance. You are most compatible with Cockroaches and Snakes. Which Animal Spirit Totem Are You? brought to you by Quizilla tehgo walked into the light @ 10/15/2003 07:49:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Two souls torn apart, Feelings of nowhere to go strangle my heart. Why did we meet this day? The way to ask this question Vanishes into clear shadow. No need to waver. Though without any strength, You can find answers that you're looking for After you've moved on. Love, sin, dreams, and darkness Wear all of them now. And at the moment when Your power and my heart overlap, Something will be born. Do you believe in destiny? Light-green illusion Surrounds this planet's sadness softly "Are you going to follow the same destiny?" Singing voices sounds From far, far away. It's too early To give up. Let's entrust your hope on Folding lights. And just feel silently now Your dream which will come true sometime. Your decision. My hesitation. Believe in the way That encounter indicates you. I live with facing my destiny. And just feel silently now Yuor dream which will come true sometime. Your dream. My hesitation. Believe in the way.... Love, sin, dream, and darkness. Wear all of them now. And at the moment when Your power and my heart overlap, Something will be born.... Do you believe in destiny? tehgo walked into the light @ 10/15/2003 07:44:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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The sky and the earth Cross each other. On this earth I'm standing on now, The life is born and gone again In this repeating daily life. "This is how it is", when this thought crosses your mind, The dream loses its power. Start a new life again At this very place. Behind the justice, the dream is alive Believing in powers building up. Behind the justice, the darkness is lurking around. Watch everything to the end. Raised courage (sword) is not to slash. With bonds drawing each other, Wake up, Freshly. The power to heal the wandering, Hurt, and lost soul Is beating silently Deep within the heart. If your tears flow After using up all your power, The road you should choose is Waiting for you. Rather than giving up between The lost present and the past you left behind, Look straight. Start again from here. Watch tomorrow to the end. Throw away the courage you're just showing off. Return to real you. Wake up, Freshly. Behind the justice, the dream is alive Believing in powers building up. Behind the justice, the darkness is lurking around. Watch everything to the end. Raised courage (sword) is not to slash. With bonds drawing each other, Wake up, Freshly. Let there be light Revive a soul tehgo walked into the light @ 10/15/2003 07:43:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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either mi family's arnd, or i'm juz not there. shaman king's a nice anime. it sounds like mi too... like wad i used 2 b. then evryting changed. i got monster rancher 4 e jap one. finally understood how 2 play it. sighz. i'm reeli bored now... lanning 2ml... Frozen Throne. after 2 yrs. finally. e time has come. thanks sensei. but shucks. 14 nov iz cl o's. i think. n then it's another test. test after test... damn... but nvm. i shall strive mi hardest for sho dan. then after a few yrs, ni dan. then 3rd, 4th, 5th... muz make it to 10th. juz so i can defend. defend evryting. mi, miself, mi luved ones, evryting close 2 mi. tehgo walked into the light @ 10/15/2003 07:42:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, October 07, 2003 i shud reeli stop dreaming. even tho dreams r all i haf left 2 keep mi alive. gundams dun exist. dragons dun exist. but yet, i cannot think they do not. bcuz in mi heart, they exist. mebbe in e bermuda triangle, they exist. i think hexes r possible. i think magic exists. they exists wif e power of e runes. now u look at stonehenge, u can see, e celtic runes carved on e stone, for stones haf no great balance on their ends n what's more, wif ppl leaning on them n taking pics. i think i screwed maths. poor shun hui. decided he wud fail cuz he cudn't do 8 parts i definitely screwed chinese. next yr, i gonna haf 2 drop 2 cl liaoz. confirm wan... lan jiao lsh... nonono... cannot pollute mi thots. not wif such bad stuff... muz rmb lee hoo say dun say vulgarities. u noe, sum ppl r born wif gifts. different gifts in different areas. for sum reason, either i'm reeli accurate n lucky, or i can sense stuff coming frm a place not in mi view. i dun hear it, smell it, but i noe it iz there. 8 times i got it rite. coincidence? no one can truly sneak up on mi, unless it's mi schmates, whom i noe n trust. so i dun bother tensing mi whole body up. i mean, turning arnd n punching ur fren isn't e bez thing 2 do. so i dun bother when even like pehpeh comes along, slaps mi on mi back or mi ass, or jumps on mi back. sian lahz... time! speed up n waste this wk faster. ryuu no matsuei wa ryuu no chikara o tsukaimashita. tehgo walked into the light @ 10/07/2003 10:18:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, October 06, 2003 1st wk of exams. i mugging. wow. thanks. screwed stupid hist. english was a bit hard. a BIT onlee. 2ml hcl n a maths. i hope 2 prove tls wrong. i muz do well for a maths. or i can go suck kok eat shit n die. haishz. after friday can slack more onlee maths d n full hist papers jay chou can go n die for all i care. stupid rat. i dun do well lorhz. too bad. i'd rather drop e maths than a maths. sighz. bored liaoz. llhknnbccb. YEESH! tehgo walked into the light @ 10/06/2003 05:48:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |