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Wednesday, November 19, 2003 it's 1.06am. i feel sleepy. tt's like, so duh. budden. i wish this time will nvr end. cuz like this, i'm at e valley. e valley of not wanting n wanting. equilibrium. wow. juz tt. lee hoo bathes at unearthly hours. like, juz now. bathed at 10+. qix still awake. playing cs. shud i play tft? no. too tired. no maths 2ml. happy happy. for this wk too. song bo. budden next wk still haf. haishz. i shall b a trustworthy fren. sure. in e past. i may haf broken 1 or 2 promises 2 frenz. budden now i will change. die die muz keep e promise. muz not gu fu their trust. i find tt i truly truly think. n study. at ungodly hrs too. like. mi best time of study. 12-3 am. wow. no need sleep liaoz. haishz. nvm. i think i better sleep. e bigger they r, e harder they fall. izzit true? or will u evr fell mi? frenz r those whom u can trust. whom u can luv. whom u can believe in. family r those whom u can turn to. whom u can luv. whom u cannot believe in. haishz. sad theory of mine. it's true in mi case. nanto ka naru. it will work out. somehow. tehgo walked into the light @ 11/19/2003 01:12:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, November 18, 2003 hmm. these song remind mi of wad i did. it's like, e revelation wan wuz not so long ago. then discover seems like wad i m doing now. esp souls overlap. luv souls overlap. cuz frenship iz impt. more impt than anithing else. bsides kinship. but kinship oso another form of frenship. zong zhi. 1 man kenot b n island. ahhz. finally thot of sth frm e bottom of mi heart. not tt i dun reeli think of those much. budden it's juz, i forget it when i blog. mi mind dun want mi 2 say wad i truly think? lol. funny. mi mind has it's own mind. :p tehgo walked into the light @ 11/18/2003 11:26:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Strongly, highly, hotly Let's catch this dream Until then, until then run after it This power is limitless If I don't sway There's nothing I can't find When I got tired of being alone I found friends, and we journeyed together As for the days ahead we can't see Don't worry, follow me I have good fortune with me That's stronger than anyone else's Just my life, I won't hand that over Like a stolen piece in a game of chess In fighting And in moving about I'm being challenged in a fighting game Strongly, highly, hotly Let's catch this dream Until then, until then run after it This power is limitless If I don't sway There's nothing I can't find By betrayal, hatred I won't let my head hang down or my pace be disturbed Facing my dreams and hopes The feelings from when I went on my journey I won't erase or forget them Because I have severeness with me Because the gaze that won't reach, The gaze that won't reach I want to feel it somewhere Because that power that won't reach, That power that won't reach Someday I'll pass it through and show you.... Strongly, highly, hotly Let's catch this dream Until then, until then run after it This power is limitless If I don't sway There's nothing I can't find The cold night, faraway memories My hurting heart In order to scratch it out Just my life, I won't hand that over Like a stolen piece in a game of chess In fighting And in moving about I'm being challenged in a fighting game Strongly, highly, hotly Let's catch this dream Until then, until then run after it This power is limitless If I don't sway There's nothing I can't find tehgo walked into the light @ 11/18/2003 11:21:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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A lonely, ruined time is arriving, Will you be ready to greet it? Everything will leave that depleted future; While going forward it may fall. A calmed heart; a single sheet of paper at my feet. The left hand on the edge of a blade; the right hand in the mirror. The idle life has come to an end; my feelings are clear. Logic lives as a loom, weaving a dream into reality And leading us to the road to victory. The sorrows of yesterday are returning; The will of tomorrow must be caught. Wanting to give up your heart for a friend, To touch their life for a while; To learn the ways of the heart. The way in which you hope has changed; You can learn to truly see once you've been touched by the first rainfall. Thinking in new ways means cutting straight to the truth. The moon reflects on water droplets, to see it you need to open your mind's eye. The sorrows of yesterday are returning; The will of tomorrow must be caught. Wanting to give up your heart for a friend, To touch their life for a while; To learn the ways of the heart. Thinking in new ways means cutting straight to the truth; The moon reflects on water droplets, but you must open your mind's eye to see it. The sorrows of yesterday are returning; The will of tomorrow must be caught. Wanting to give up your heart for a friend, To touch their life for a while. A lonely, ruined time surrounds us, Will you be waiting to greet it? Everything will leave that depleted future; While going forward it will fall. Towards the tranquil spirit. tehgo walked into the light @ 11/18/2003 11:19:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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The morning sun at my back, the moment I looked A too bright rainbow spread [across the sky] Blown by the good-feeling wind Now, to a journey that aims at the end of the world Because the friends I meet, those smiling faces Give me peace of mind I want to be watching over them, I want to believe in them No matter what time, no matter if we're apart Our hearts are always together In warmth Our souls overlap For example, if the figure reflected in the mirror Asked to live in a different world I wouldn't be at a loss The echoing pain in this body is the answer The moon and sun, the same yet different They both have a place where they shine In this stream we call a period of time When you feel like you've been caught in it Everything you can see now in front of your eyes Going straight ahead, catch it all Let's catch the truth On the one streak from the shooting star I wish for happiness I want to be watching over them, I want to believe in them No matter what time, no matter if we're apart Our hearts are always together In warmth Our souls overlap tehgo walked into the light @ 11/18/2003 11:12:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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footwork... too many steps... technique... ok lah. i think. movement iz there. balance... quite off lehz... haishz. then sunday went 2 help grading saw pierre png. he's quite short. surprisingly. esp since he looks quite tall. in pck. shortie. aboz i est. 165-170. n he iz. or wuz. a white belter. hehehe. 11 yrs faster than him. bnet hates mi. keeps lagging mi. 2ml got maths. damndamndamn. aniwaez. i luv home. i like sleeping. =_=. damn lazy. but i like aikido too~ i like tft too~. haishz. no one 2 tok to. thanks 2 zhengwen. hu partnered mi 2nd for grading. n din go rough. thank u. thank god too. hee. e bad thing wuzn't tt i sprained mi neck. it's tt mi grandpa now warded. got jaundice, cancerous growth arnd liver, cist in kidney, cancerous thingie spread 2 lungs, n err... bloated stomach by sth. tt's real serious. n i not happy. bloody hell. i seriously damn... upset? i dunno. juz not happy. not fu qi. damn. kkz now go slp for 2ml's maths. tehgo walked into the light @ 11/18/2003 10:09:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Friday, November 14, 2003 e new srw does haf a nice cover. n i din lan on tues in e end. boring lehz. stupid hols bo kick liaoz. n pong iz being... himself again. if u get mi drift. aniwaez. juz failed mi winning streak. damn game started becoming jerky. then screw up here, screw up there. i think e bad thing tt wuz gonna happen happend. sprained mi neck. lol. i think. too much playing while facing a tv slanted. damn. neck got stuck a bit facing e right. fixed it tho. not e hard way. too bloody painful. i wonder how mi other frenz doing now? finished shaman king. hehehe. i want shamanic powers. haishz. but dreams r gd. no matter wad kind. impossible, or nearly impossible. 2ml iz D-Day. omg. can't stand it. e stress. so bloody pressurizing. $440. shodan. make it. or lose it. damn. can't stand it already. hope wenfeng n mi cuzzie go for grading 2ml. i asked them 2 b mi partner. they sed ok. hope they come manz. i nvr evr evr wanna partner zhengwen. he's nice. but oso rough. imagine a light throw. i ended up being smashed into e mats. n i bounced up. whole body. yah. imagine tt. 5 cm off e grnd. not pain lorhz. i think i'll b bzier after grading. damn. i want 2 go chalet. where's chiang when he's supposed 2 b here? nanto ka naru. it'll work out somehow. =D tehgo walked into the light @ 11/14/2003 08:57:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, November 10, 2003 ehh... i got sum uneasy feeling sth bad's gonna happen haishz. izzit juz mi? or iz e world turning for e worst? altho i did dream e new srw had a nice cover. i dreamt. may not come true. haishz. i think i better start dreaming now. otherwise 2ml cannot go out n lan. tehgo walked into the light @ 11/10/2003 12:03:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Sunday, November 09, 2003 hmm. i dun feel like. anithing. gonna lan again. omg. evrytime i come here, it's day b4 a lan. yeesh. or day of lan itself... damn i so fast tired liaoz. i think it's e aikido xtra training. like. thx lots. i get thrown aboz each wk. i throw ppl aboz each wk. once iz enuff. no. frm now on, sat AND sun. wtf. haishz. at least now i got shaman king~! heheh. feel jealous qix. hee. haishz. shud sleep soon. tehgo walked into the light @ 11/09/2003 11:38:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Tuesday, November 04, 2003 haishz. e kick of holz running out. n it's day 6. omfg. damndamndamn. i going lan againz. whee. mebbe. juz mebbe. i may stop coming here there's no reason left. i think. mebbe here's juz a place last time. juz 2 let out mi thots. mi frustrations. juz so, i can feel better. budden again. it shows mi i haf changed. different frm b4. i think i'm bcoming mindless. thanks 2 e upcoming grading n cl o's. yech. i hate hafing tests n such during hols. oh yah. mi dog's stupid. seriously. both dogs haf pillows. ok, mi old pillows. then 1 dog pillow bo cover. e other 1 u open e cover, say, 'odie go in' n he does tt. he juz hides in e pillow. wtf. dumb dog. haishz. but they're cute. i dun mind them liddat. they tell mi stuff. they tell mi e world iz still gd 2 b in. haishz. lan at 10... haishz. hope i win. lol. tehgo walked into the light @ 11/04/2003 09:12:00 am -+-+-+-+- |