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Sunday, February 29, 2004 listening to: TV got new com... whee... i feel so happy... rite... aiyarhz~~ chi gort b3. i'm screwed even quek n diwei got a2. i'm finished larhz~~~ poor pong~~ hopefully he not sad at all~~ cried cuz he got b4... no one else did... obviously we all as frenz felt his sadness. budden, i cudn't express it mi sadness wuz ripped away. when i lost bhante, e lil 1, n mi grandpa. rmb how i sed i dreamt of mi grandpa? how i saw him, happy, eating happily, i wuz so happy i laffed until i cried? evrytime i think aboz it, i juz feel like crying. but tears nvr roll, bcuz they're shut off. i shut them off after e funeral. i shut miself off after it too. i dunno... i dunno wad 2 do now~ cudn't slp nite b4 last. got a b3, tt's like, real bad le. n den pong wuz so sad. i wuz tossing n turning in mi slp. i decided tt mebbe mi whole family, will wake up 2 mi door thingie clacking against e door. y? i kept going in n out of mi rm. i wanna blog sth. aiyah nvm. i wanna blog sth. aiyah nvm, wait until 2ml. i juz kept walking in n out evry 5 mins bcuz i juz felt so upset, so sad. played dnd at mi cousin's yest n here comes e pain for wwe... e big show~~ y can't evrything disappear wif 1 show stopper? y can't i juz b a dragon, fly away into space n die amongst e celestial beings~~ tehgo walked into the light @ 2/29/2004 09:25:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, February 21, 2004 listening to : com making whirring noises ran a gay 2.4 2day. had 2 drop out. basket. 1st time in ri i drop out. y? cuz i had gay pants n gay shoes. e new pants all 1 size smaller. oihao wears xl, now muz buy xxl so how? i no size =.= nvm pants keep hiking up. then gay shoes, damn tight. in e end, i stopped cuz mi leg hurts. lactic acid build-up. n for sum reason i got chest pains. rather pissed 2day. cudn't rmb much shit for chi. then like, damn gay. i think mi best mark iz B3. wtbh. muz rmb teo borrowed mi pe kit~ pissed off during soccer during recess. outnumbered 6-11 by sec 3s they say we pro, but it's like, their quality of play = our quality in sec 3. which iz like, rather ok. budden we're outnumbered. cuz most were mugging chi. we lost 3-1. sad lah. n sum whore pushed mi down. of cos i bo pian, i wuz running straight into him alaric tried 2 push him 2 e side, budden he push forward, i.e. mi. then like, e change of force n momentum a bit great. i had no choice but 2 do an awkward roll backwards. n like, i wuz on mi knees as i regained balance. basket lah... ok tired le. better slp more... next wk 3 tests... tehgo walked into the light @ 2/21/2004 12:13:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Thursday, February 19, 2004 listening to : Shaman King - Brave Heart mi things r getting koped n i dun like it. ok so i dun value those very much. but i din get 1 anywhere. i got it in china. i bet sum whore frm co took it. cuz rico alwaes uses our klazrm. gay... thnx a lot vincent. make mi sit next 2 clement. cuz u wanna move up next 2 swaku... heng si got seat next 2 pong. haishz pong arhz.... tsk tsk. i bet u if he sees this 2day, he will tell mi 2ml,"wad u mean hah!?" lol. aiyah aniwaez. basket. chi wuz damn boring. then he wuz leaning on mi. then bugger sed i feel damn soft. duh... he wuz leaning on mi arm. not like, mi shoulder or sth. then mi chi tcher saw. then sed, 'aiya yanshun(pong), bu yao kao guangming(mi =.=), yin wei ni tai shu fu le, hui shui jiao." basket. even tcher suanning mi. dun get mi wrong. i dun find pong, how 2 say, detestable. it's juz i dun like pong cuz he keeps saying teja iz then sez," teja tan! teja TAN! not u rite?" =.= then i like, haf no choice lah. so now i stick 2 prodding him. more effective :D less violent :D yaksy's an absolute moron. gl 2 all full geog students dis yr. u gotta mug like mad 2 get A1s. as hard as i haf 2 mug 2 get all A1s. oh tt's damn gay. ok i gotta stop playing. i wish 2 make a reminder icon. so i rmb not 2 do so, y, n how. hehe. can lift aloy n lighter ppl in show stopper form hehehz... of cos i can lift others normally even gary. n tyong. both not much heavier/lighter. but less than 10 secs i tired liaoz. thanks thanks. played quite well in soccer yest. but i screwed up when they asked mi b keep. wth. i can't b keep for anithing. n e new ri shorts suck n r gay. all e sizes r 1 size smaller. = for mi, gary, yj, tyong all tt big kind, e shorts look more like tights. evry yr, e damn shorts get worse n worse. sec 1 shorts were much better. even if they faded easily, they were tonnes more expandable. can stretch damn easily. now e damn fabric like, worse than normal sch pants. it's like, wearing denim shorts almost. damn restricting... haishz~ tehgo walked into the light @ 2/19/2004 09:06:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, February 16, 2004 listening to: resident crickets chirping wif their asses i regret dropping jap now. mi jap is. so can make it lorhz. tt wud've pulled up mi msg. but. gay thing is. sch wud still haf mi drop it rite? since mi other hw iz, or wuz, like, so gay. haishz. regrets ain't gonna bring mi nowhere. when i get e cash, i wanna relearn. i wanna rmb e titans of east history. i wanna show e world, tt we can make it. i wanna show e world e americans r whores. i wanna... i wanna... tehgo walked into the light @ 2/16/2004 09:58:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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ok so alex din turn up =( i'm so tired~ very bored~ nothing 2 do, nothing 2 look to, nothing 2 look forward to. life's losing its meaning so fast. study, suffer pressure n werk. then we grow of age. werk, suffer more pressure. then even older. children, more werk, even more pressure. wtf. dun i miss e days when i wuz seriously stupid, yet innocent, carefree, no pressure. now? werk, late werk, snowballed werk. wtf. how 2 damn finish? i alwaes wanted 2 resolve miself. 2 do this yr's werk conscientiously do it punctually, dun b tardy. now, i haf like, 0 heart 2 do le. y? no incentive, boring days. i'd rather sleep mi life away. wkdays? hw, tonnes of it. tests. werk i reeli dowan 2 do. wkends? more hw. pressure. aikido. fun, yes. but got hw. studying. werk i still dowan 2 do. sure, can play com. but. wif no one else? no way man. ppl sumtimes say i antisocial. go home play com. but i play online 2 meet other ppl. frenz frm other countries. other timezones not of ours. then we look at muggers. they say we antisocial. i heard them tell each other jokes. omfh, it wuz like, a maths joke. then wuz a physics joke. a chem joke. basically, muggerish jokes. jokes tt ain't funny. tt's antisocial. cuz no 1 wanna hear u. i've juz reached mi peak of tolerance. i can't stand this routine life liaoz. i can't stand doing werk n more werk. i can't stand going 2 sch. i can't stand having a godparent. i can't stand animal culling. i can't stand a lot of stuff this world allows~~~ so sue mi... tehgo walked into the light @ 2/16/2004 09:56:00 pm -+-+-+-+- |
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Saturday, February 14, 2004 listening to: Hikaru no Go - I'll Be The One, Hikaru no Go - Bokura no Boken finally dled these 2 songs... i dunno wad 2 do now~~~ i think it's juz tt, after a hectic wk, wkends r like, uber sian~ i haf absolutely nothing 2 do. bsides aikido at 4 2day... if not... waddahell im to do? hopefully alex iz there... i'm quite sian of partnering mi cousins le. i mean, yah ok, mi cousins n i get along. but. i dun wanna kip tokking aboz games. it's like, i juz bot spellforce e original then like, ok it's quite nice. budden wc3 oso like, not much new stuff ok tt's partly bcuz mi com~ SUX wif alex there at least can tok other kok. hehe~~ not much diff frm kok, but can tok aboz schs. age diffs. hey at least he's nice. albeit smaller than i m. acs kia... swimmer... i shud've stuck 2 judo larhz. now bo cca. thnx 2 screw-ups like trevor sze n leong wei shin. gay whores... push mi 2 band. band say not official, push back. back n forth, back n forth. i sian then i stopped moving. whores made mi miss syf. i dunno. alex iz juz like... lee hoo~ i n him got common interests. lee hoo iz like, soccer, wc3. alex iz like, sports, aikido ok i dun reeli like basketball, but, he dun play either :p rmbing e stuff i shud noe b4 trying 2 b a trained leader techniques: ikkyo, nikyo, sankyo, yonkyo, gokyo, shionage, tenchinage, kotegaishi, hokkyuho,iriminage, kaitennage variants: shomen, yokomen, suki, katatedori, katadori, ushiro, morotedori,hamihantachi, ken, tanto ken: 1st suguri, 2nd suguri, 3rd suguri, thrust, deflect shit tt's a lot... ok gd... nitez tehgo walked into the light @ 2/14/2004 12:56:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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i've bin having no dreams. no peace. no true rest. all i haf iz werk. n all e more, i dun wanna do e damn werk. low sai gives more werk than weiling tt's like, quite impossible le. then like, i owe geog. sry ms tan, budden, i dunno i juz can't do... mebbe... sumhow, at e rate i play, i most likely will get a brain tumour soon. headache here, headache there. sumtimes, i fall aslp while on e move. or while standing. no, not black outs... i juz feel... tired? aniwaez... hopefully i find sth gd. 2day's val's day. i kenot reeli giv a shit. but waddaheck, happy val's day. yest wuz mi day. mi best day. friday e 13th. i dunno. it's juz mi i guess. i prefer unlucky stuff. ok unlucky 2 a certain extent. black cats r cute, i've tried 2 save, but failed, a crow, i've walked under a ladder, i've broken a mirror... n i'm not dead. so sum1 kill mi... wo bu yao zuo le.. mi china sword kena koped... ahh hell... at least din kope mi ken. haishz~~~ ma fan arhz ma fan... i think i go slp le~~ end of wk's blog~~ tehgo walked into the light @ 2/14/2004 12:37:00 am -+-+-+-+- |
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Monday, February 09, 2004 listening to: Shin Shirayuki Hime Pretear - White Destiny long time no blog... i think sec 4 life too bz liaoz. we got enuff werk for 5 mths in 1 mth+... u noe... it's strange... for sum reason... ppl i noe, haf ppl hu juz passed away it's like, after mi grandpa passed away n then came e bird flu. but at e same time, for e.g., ppl's grandparents oso went... then another case iz like, danli's pri schmate died in accident. wad's this all mean? end of days? or juz, cou qiao er yi... mi mom wuz saying like, how mi youngest aunt dreamt aboz mi grandpa. asking for duck rice. then mi cousin wuz like, mi father oso dreamt aboz grandpa she thinks. n then, surprisingly, after so many days, i suddenly dream of mi grandpa. we were eating at a restaurant. then i saw mi grandpa. he looked younger. i think i wuz conscious 2 e dream. cuz i wuz so happy 2 c him alive. i cried, n wuz so happy i laffed. he wuz like, as he used to, eat eat, eat summore lah, a lot of food wad. then i wuz like. mmm ok... mmm.... but in mi mind, i reeli thot he wuz there wif mi. i think, juz like ffta's story. e more i want, e more i dun wanna stop dreaming. can u evr imagine, how happy i felt when i saw him alive, alive n happy, n doing wad he likes best: eating. then suddenly, like it wuz him, mebbe he wuz wif mi, then it wud explain tt he din want mi 2 live a dream, n escape e truth i nvr admitted. i woke up. in my room, same 4 walls, same messy stuff. n i juz cried. cuz e realisation wuz too great a shock. it's like him passing away in a split second rite b4 mi own veri eyes. i miss him a lot. like in land b4 time, "i miss him so much"... ok it wuz a her, lilfoot's mom, budden, for mi, it iz mi grandpa tt i miss... tehgo walked into the light @ 2/09/2004 12:21:00 am -+-+-+-+- |